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Post by myheart on Dec 6, 2005 1:43:56 GMT -5
I can't believe how much I'm hurting...I miss him so much, the pain is so strong...my chest aches. I can't believe how much I want to hold him. If I could just hold him. I miss him so very, very much. How can you love someone so much....he filled my whole heart and soul. I loved the way he smelled, just to breathe in his sweet smell. I want to watch him sleep. I want to hold him, and rock him....God it hurts so much that I can't and I won't be able to, no matter how much I want to. I can scream and cry and beg and nothing will change this. Its so frusturating. I just can't stop this horrible aching. I can't stop crying. I bought him a christmas gift today. I did not know which is worse, not getting it or knowing he'll never see it. How do you all get through this. I wish my days on earth would end so that I may be with him.....I just want to be with him. Thank you all for listening......
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Post by Caden's Mom on Dec 6, 2005 1:57:31 GMT -5
Hi Krista. I know exactly how you feel... it's too painful to live... It does change over time. The grieving will never end, but you will learn how to live again. This year, the third, is much harder than last year. I'm not sure why, but I was told to expect this to happen. I'm here to listen. Please keep reaching out!
Hugs,
Leanne
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Post by aloha~dj on Dec 6, 2005 14:08:10 GMT -5
Dear Myheart, This truly does suck!! I'm three years down the road although the pain has lessoned, it still aches every day without my lovie Abbie~Girl. One of your posts from yesterday stated "one more day without him." I just wanted you to know I felt the same way. I didn't want another second pass without Abbie, because it would just be another second from the last time I got to hold her, smell her, play with her. Joan from the loss of teenage/adult had some great words for me that day, maybe she'll come here and give some insight on the subject. I would love to hear more about your little boy. What is his name, what is your name?? Are you talking with someone about this freakin nightmare or are you trying to go through the days by yourself?? Although, I don't know much about you I'm worried about you. Come here anytime.. These people here have been a lifesaver for me and truly shown some light on this path of darkness. I hope your day is more gentle on you today. Thinking of you as I watch the snow fall here.  I just feel so bad anyone has to go through this, it's just absoulute h###...  Your Friend in grief, Debbie (DJ) |
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Post by heidiforever on Dec 8, 2005 19:32:00 GMT -5
I know honey, I know! (((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))
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