In 2 days, Caden will have been gone 3 years :(

[Caden's Mom]

Hi. My heart breaks for each of you. I've recently returned to SG and have begun to read your stories. I'm sorry you are here, but I'm thankful you found such an amazing place.

My name is Leanne and my son Caden passed away at exactly 4 months of age almost 3 years ago. I originally joined SG in early '03. There were several of us here who lost our beloved children during the same time and we were really able to grieve, understand and support each other in a way no one else could. SG has saved my sanity in the worst of times. I'm once again in a place where I need your support. In 2 days, my beloved first child, Caden, willl have been gone from my arms for 3 years There are just not enough crying smilies.

I'm not sure what to say. I'm just lost right now. I have a BEAUTIFUL 18 mo. old daughter whom I adore!!!!!!! But, I am just grieving the loss of my son. I miss my son!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want my son!!!!!!!! This sucks!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for listening,

Leanne

[andrea]

I'm so sorry Leanne. ((((((((hugs)))))))))

[melody]

Hello sweet Leeann, I remember you and Caden. I am so sorry the date is approaching. I will be praying you can find some peace in the midst of the storm. Matthew has been gone for 14 years now. And still each time Aug. 9 approaches, I get extremely melacholy and sad. My arms ache to hold him. Somehow, I have gotten through them and you will, too. It's the only thing we can do. To hurt so much shows how much we loved and still love. I use to see his "date" as he has been gone from me that long but now I look at it as, "I am one more year closer to being united with him once again.

Once again, I pray for peace for you dear Leeann. Hold your precious daughter in your lap and tell her of her wonderful older brother who watches over her with love, cry your tears. I will cry with you.

[Corinne]

{{{{{{{{{Leanne}}}}}}}}}

I am so sorry for the loss of your little boy, Caden. Anniversaries are always a horrible reminder to us and all those feelings come rushing back.

I will keep you in my thoughts this week.

Peace to you

[myheart]

Thinking of you during this heartbreaking time...I can't even imangine 3 yrs from now, I just lost my sweet boy 2 weeks ago. I want to curl up on his bed, close my eyes and never wake up.....I hope you are well and you have peace during this difficult time.

Sincerely, Krista

[heidiforever]

I am so sorry, I know sometimes it feels like it will never get any easier, and the pain you feel today is just as strong as 3 years ago. Do you have any special things that you are planning on doing to remember him?

[iamd3w]

Anniversaries are soooooooo hard as I know--just made it past my second and all I can say is that it sure helped me to be able to come here and type and read. I knew I wasn't alone and I could say whatever I needed to, and there was always someone there to respond--sooner or later. I want to thank you all for being there for me and I will be here for you too.
Dominique

[Caden's Mom]

Thank you Andrea, Melody, Corrine, Krista, Heidi and Dominique.

The only thing I have planned to commemorate Caden tomorrow is to light his candle. My husbands is currently working really long hours, so my daughter and I will spend a quiet day and evening at home. I'd like to spend the day under the covers, but I have an 18 month old that needs me - and actually, her distractions will be helpful.

Peace and love to you all,
Leanne

[chancesmom]

dear leanne,
i am thinking of you and your sweet caden today. it's hard to believe it has been three years for us. december is a tough month for alot of us oldtimers....
i am so glad, even after this time, that we still have silent grief, that we still have other mothers to understand that time heals, but our pain will always be.
lighting my candle today for caden...
love, sharrell

[jaredsmommyforever]

Dear Leanne,

Thinking of you on this tough anniversary and wishing you whatever peace you can find. I know you don't know me, but I know it helped me when people acknowledged my son's anniversary, so I thought I would post. So many people are thinking of you. Surely Caden feels all of this love.

Jared's Mommy
Forever

[Caden's Mom]

Thank you Sharrell and Jared's Mommy!