Post by melody on Dec 3, 2005 12:20:53 GMT -5
Hello all, I hope this finds you have a peaceful day as the holidays approach.
First of all, to clarify about my feet. It is my Left foot only that will have surgery. It was moved from the 13th to the 19th of this month due to insurance coverage. (If all the hospitals, etc would just stay in the system and not float in and out
) I thought I had posted about it but anyway. For the past 3 years, I have had trouble walking off and on. Last year from Jan-May, I wore a walking boot 24/7. All was better in July when dr. released me saying we will really know more when you go back to school. I was at school only two weeks before I couldn't walk again and went back into my boot. Somedays the pain is so intense, and it is so hard to control temper with unruly students or have patience with students who are trying to understand a new concept.
I'm rambling. I saw the dr. in Sept. I asked about surgerical options as I found "haglund's deformity" and researched it. I have it in both feet but the left is the problem at this point. Decided to do surgery last part of Sept.
In Oct. when we learned our son's hearing for the child support case and our angelbear was being delayed, my mom had three stents placed and my foot was killing me on a Friday afternoon, I lost it at school while I was doing bus duty. It just so happened it was a student who is always in trouble but MOM says, HE never does anything wrong. Well, it was in trouble, he was belligerent and smart mouthed and I lost it. I yelled at him. I really yelled and wouldn't you know it, Mom heard me. So now she had a point. It was a mess.
I cried for days. I told Monty, "IF I can't control myself, I don't need to teaching anymore." I can't tell you it devasted me. It still kills me when I think about it now. So I decided to resign.
In the meantime, my dad who is a plumber took an electric powerchair in payment for some work he did. Micah brought it to me the weekend before Thanksgiving. He was to have his hearing on Tuesday and DNA reports and the att. postponed it.
Anyway, I worked with the chair. Took it to school one afternoon and played around in it. Talked to my principal. They hadn't found anyone for my position. She asked if I wanted to stay. I did but was still scared of my emotions at the time. We decided I would talk with the surgeon one more time.
So, I will not resign my position at school. I will take 6-8 weeks off while achilles tendon reattatches to the bone and no weightbearing at all. I will return to school in FEB. sometime with the understanding I will still need time off for physical therapy to get me back to walking again. I ride my little chair to school as it is only a ten minute ride.
I think it will get old before I get out of it, think I will loose a lot of muscle tone while in it but I will trust the Lord to be with me and get me through this.
Just won't be putting up Christmas tree since it will take up too much room and I won't be able to get around.
I don't know why I posted all of this. Guess, I just needed to work through it still.
I know, I am scared of the surgery. It is outpatient but the first 48 hours are critical. I must keep it 6 inches about my hip at all times and ice it 1 hour off 2 hours for the first 48 hours. I know I am getting older as I had to have complete blood work done and and a EKG. The papers I signed Wed. scared me a bit. But I keep telling myself they just have to tell you ALL the BAD things that can happen so you know about them.
I prefer "Ignorance is BLISS" ;D
Better go. Don't know how much I will get here in the next several weeks, but know YOU all are in my heart and prayers as the holidays come and go.
First of all, to clarify about my feet. It is my Left foot only that will have surgery. It was moved from the 13th to the 19th of this month due to insurance coverage. (If all the hospitals, etc would just stay in the system and not float in and out
) I thought I had posted about it but anyway. For the past 3 years, I have had trouble walking off and on. Last year from Jan-May, I wore a walking boot 24/7. All was better in July when dr. released me saying we will really know more when you go back to school. I was at school only two weeks before I couldn't walk again and went back into my boot. Somedays the pain is so intense, and it is so hard to control temper with unruly students or have patience with students who are trying to understand a new concept.I'm rambling. I saw the dr. in Sept. I asked about surgerical options as I found "haglund's deformity" and researched it. I have it in both feet but the left is the problem at this point. Decided to do surgery last part of Sept.
In Oct. when we learned our son's hearing for the child support case and our angelbear was being delayed, my mom had three stents placed and my foot was killing me on a Friday afternoon, I lost it at school while I was doing bus duty. It just so happened it was a student who is always in trouble but MOM says, HE never does anything wrong. Well, it was in trouble, he was belligerent and smart mouthed and I lost it. I yelled at him. I really yelled and wouldn't you know it, Mom heard me. So now she had a point. It was a mess.
I cried for days. I told Monty, "IF I can't control myself, I don't need to teaching anymore." I can't tell you it devasted me. It still kills me when I think about it now. So I decided to resign.
In the meantime, my dad who is a plumber took an electric powerchair in payment for some work he did. Micah brought it to me the weekend before Thanksgiving. He was to have his hearing on Tuesday and DNA reports and the att. postponed it.
Anyway, I worked with the chair. Took it to school one afternoon and played around in it. Talked to my principal. They hadn't found anyone for my position. She asked if I wanted to stay. I did but was still scared of my emotions at the time. We decided I would talk with the surgeon one more time.
So, I will not resign my position at school. I will take 6-8 weeks off while achilles tendon reattatches to the bone and no weightbearing at all. I will return to school in FEB. sometime with the understanding I will still need time off for physical therapy to get me back to walking again. I ride my little chair to school as it is only a ten minute ride.
I think it will get old before I get out of it, think I will loose a lot of muscle tone while in it but I will trust the Lord to be with me and get me through this.
Just won't be putting up Christmas tree since it will take up too much room and I won't be able to get around.
I don't know why I posted all of this. Guess, I just needed to work through it still.
I know, I am scared of the surgery. It is outpatient but the first 48 hours are critical. I must keep it 6 inches about my hip at all times and ice it 1 hour off 2 hours for the first 48 hours. I know I am getting older as I had to have complete blood work done and and a EKG. The papers I signed Wed. scared me a bit. But I keep telling myself they just have to tell you ALL the BAD things that can happen so you know about them.
I prefer "Ignorance is BLISS" ;D
Better go. Don't know how much I will get here in the next several weeks, but know YOU all are in my heart and prayers as the holidays come and go.
I know it will not be any fun. I am 7 weeks out of surgery for my shoulder and still very frustrated at my limitations.