drea
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Post by drea on Dec 2, 2005 22:07:24 GMT -5
my son was a victim of sids on nov 18th i miss him very much and am having a hard time accepting this fate he was so perfect in every way and it is just not fair. his name is samuel allen.only 2 months old . he stoped breathing at daycare on wed the 14th of nov she did cpr and they kept him alive for 3 days in icu i thank god for the last days to spend with him no brain activity on the eeg decided to take him off of respirator to see if was breathing on own and all his vitals crashed i had them take all the tubes out and i just wanted him to feel me his last little breaths so i could sing him to sleep for the last time .sam was a miracle for me cant have anymore i have two beautiful daughters 14 and 23 . i know i should be happy for the time i did get but it was so short and keep blaming myself for going back to work. i was just doing what we all have to do . i feel so robbed and empty , like this is not supposed to happen to people like me he was so loved he made us all complete and everything in my life that had been so rough till that point seem all worthwhile. i miss my little man so .thank you for the replys i think i am going to get some peace with this it helps to visit with others thank you and god bless you all
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Post by Teeny's Mom on Dec 2, 2005 22:58:54 GMT -5
drea,
I am so sorry that you lost your son and you find yourself in this situation. I am glad that you found SG and encourage you to keep posting here. ((((( hugs))))) Everyone here knows how hard it is to lose a child.
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Post by pamela on Dec 2, 2005 23:20:32 GMT -5
Hi Drea,
How old was your sweet little baby? What was his name? I am so, so sorry that you had to find this web site and so very sorry to hear that your precious little one is no longer here for you to hold. I know how much your heart is aching right now, how it all seems like a terrible bad dream...I so wish it was.
Please come here and share more when you are able. You will find a lot of support here and be able to "talk" with others that are feeling the same as you. It does help to share Drea, it does help when you realize that your not alone in how you feel. Nothing will ever take your pain away, but we can help you survive the pain, and will do so with open arms. My heart aches for you.
Pam
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Post by myheart on Dec 3, 2005 2:09:22 GMT -5
I am so so sorry of your loss...my heart is broken for you. I just lost my boy on Nov. 17th. I just want to die. His loss is beyond my comprehension...the pain is so intense I want to scream. Even in the middle of a crowded room I want to hit my knees and beg God to bring him back to me. I feel like the world is moving around me and I can't figure out whats going on...I can't breathe. Everytime the thought that "this is it, I won't see him again" reaches my brain I feel like I've been punched in the stomach. I just found this website last week and already having someone or people know my pain is something. You don't feel so alone for a few min. when your in here. My thoughts are with you....and I send you peace.
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Post by Corinne on Dec 3, 2005 10:29:32 GMT -5
Drea, I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious baby, Samuel. It is so unfair. There is no way to comprehend why a tiny baby would be taken so suddenly from your arms.
I am glad you found SG so early on. Please come often and share your thoughts and feelings. We all understand
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Post by andrea on Dec 3, 2005 20:19:08 GMT -5
I'm so sorry :-( It's so tragic to lose such sweet little angels. I feel the same way about my daughter. I know I was lucky to have her for 16 months, but that really doesn't ease the pain. It seems like such a short time. And I think of how loved she was, by me and my husband, her brothers and tons of family and friends. Seems like that should have kept her here with us. :-( No words can really help but please know that we all are here and you are not alone.
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