Post by wuvmyangel93 on Nov 19, 2005 13:22:31 GMT -5
Thanks everyone, it was a very difficult day and I'm still not doing well. I did finally eat something yesterday and got maybe 2 hours of sleep. I've pretty much just been going since wed morning when I finished the legal brief on Kali-Morie's education.
I had a friend of Kali-Morie's over last night that is still here and muddled through the ot meeting for Kali-Morie yesterday, a whole 1/2 hour that went great, but I'm just so numb can't even focus on that. Yes the director of the private scool was out and I only got 1/2 an hour, the district had all day.
I am just literally numb, and don't understand why this year is hitting me so terribly hard, the first anniversary was not as hard as this.
For days everytime I close my eyes or the house is still and quiet I see the images of that night, the way he looked, the way he looked 6 months later when we had to move him, it is just so odd, and I can't shake all the memories of that time, how the 2 children I was watching went to bed, how sydney cried to tell baby bye bye and I told her know note even knowing at that time Baby Christian was dead.
I do thank the 3 of you for remembering, even my best friend didn't call, so odd of her not to call, but I understand the living takes precedence. Afterall he was my son, no one else's and who am I to think anyone would remember he died let alone that he ever lived.
I had a friend of Kali-Morie's over last night that is still here and muddled through the ot meeting for Kali-Morie yesterday, a whole 1/2 hour that went great, but I'm just so numb can't even focus on that. Yes the director of the private scool was out and I only got 1/2 an hour, the district had all day.
I am just literally numb, and don't understand why this year is hitting me so terribly hard, the first anniversary was not as hard as this.
For days everytime I close my eyes or the house is still and quiet I see the images of that night, the way he looked, the way he looked 6 months later when we had to move him, it is just so odd, and I can't shake all the memories of that time, how the 2 children I was watching went to bed, how sydney cried to tell baby bye bye and I told her know note even knowing at that time Baby Christian was dead.
I do thank the 3 of you for remembering, even my best friend didn't call, so odd of her not to call, but I understand the living takes precedence. Afterall he was my son, no one else's and who am I to think anyone would remember he died let alone that he ever lived.
