Post by captainQsmom on Nov 10, 2005 23:50:52 GMT -5
Well today marks one year since Keegan has been gone and one year, two weeks for Abby. We have made it through Christmas, New Years, Easter, Mother and Fathers day, Thanksgiving, Halloween and all of the other firsts. All of the special days where my family should have been together. All of the days where we struggled to put on a happy face for our daughter, and pretend that everything was normal. If only it could have been. Everyone keeps telling me that it will get easier after the one year mark, and oh how I hope they are right. But really what will change with time? I know that my grief will lessen but the important thing, my babies, will still be gone. I will still be missing two very important members of my family. It seems so funny since I never even got to bring them home, but I see them everywheres. I see my daughter playing in the yard and I can see Abby and Keegan toddling behind her. I can picture them playing with the other kids at family gatherings. Somehow I don't see a year changing that. Time will not diminish my love for them but I hope it does dull the pain-that physical ache, that not being able to breath feeling that comes out of the blue. Oh, how we miss them and all that should have been. So time may lessen the pain but we will never forget but then how could we? We cannot forget those we love.
