attn: Lendy

[wloublue]

;D Hey girlfriend! ;D

Wanted to say hey and let you know that I was able to lurk at the sg board and saw your updates. I love your pic, I pictured you as blonder for some reason

Honey, I'm so sorry for this latest blow. I wish that the s/a results had been different. I don't blame you a bit for retreating and digesting this new information. It is hard to be here when you know that you are out of the game for now. I know too well.

I hope you aren't giving up, and are looking into your treatment options. Like vitamins and environmental changes to increase swimmers.

Enjoy your break, hoping for a miracle for you guys or at least a new found strength and hope to face whatever you need to face.

[Lendy]

Wendy Lou,

It is so nice to hear from you!

A blond huh? I'm not sure how I should take that! ;D

DH and I have a lot to work on other than getting pregnant. We've had some problems over this past year and are finally working through them. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we get to go to this marriage conference in a couple of weeks. He said maybe, and my parents are paying for it, so I just need him to say YES! And I think that will open the door for more communication between us. So we will see!

I am definately NOT giving up on becoming a mother. Maybe I will never give birth to a child, but someway somehow I will be a mother to a living child! I do know that I am very thankful that I haven't become pregnant in the past 2 years that we have been trying. I haven't been ready for it...I honestly don't think I could of dealt with the emotions. Since seeing my therapist I have been able to recognize that!

So I'm growing but I still have further to go. I'm definately not going anywhere...life is too exciting here at SG and I've grown close to too many of the ladies here that I couldn't just leave and not stay up todate on all of your lives! I'm nosey like that!

Anyways, enough about me. Have you and your dh started ttc again? I know you were waiting until the fall...and it is almost winter!

I hope things are going wonderful for you. Maybe you'll get a BFP (fingers crossed) and I'll get a surprise not ttc BFP...and we can move to PAM together!

LENDY