Post by heavyheart on Nov 25, 2005 18:51:30 GMT -5
I found out I was pregnant with my 3rd child on my first child's birthday. Shortly thereafter I started spotting (happened with the other two) and went in to the doc to find out I had a separation of the placenta (did not have this with the first two). My doc told me as a routine in the practice they now do chromosonal (sp) testing on patients that have any complications (whether minor or not) - it is just an additional blood test.
Almost two weeks later, I moved and gushed blood, moved again about 1/2 hour later and gushed blood. Went back to the doc and found that a blood clot had formed in the separation (apparently very common and usually goes away when the placenta takes over at twelve weeks). The baby looked great and the hearbeat was strong - my miscarriage risk just went to 5%.
A week later I went back for an ordinary visit. I was told I had a chromosonal abnormality which causes my blood to excessively clot. You can have many children and it is never a problem or you can be at risk for a later term miscarriage (20 weeks). The treatment was folic acid and a blood thinner (shot in my stomache everyday). The good news was the separation was not growing and seemed to be correcting itself. I would see the doc every two weeks for the duration of the pregnancy.
Two weeks later, 11w6days, a sonogram showed a strong heartbeat and the baby was touching its feet with its hands. Both dh and I left that visit so happy, all the problems were taken care of and the baby looked great. We were so happy and relieved. A few days later I had my downs syndrome marker sonogram, 12w3d, there was no heartbeat. The baby had died.
I have not been doing well. I cry on my commute to work and back home. I heard all I want for christmas and everytime I hear it I cry more because of the line something like, "I dont care about the presents under the christmas tree all I want for christmas is you." All I want for christmas is my baby.
When I told my mom, I saw the look in her eye of utter sadness and I saw her flashback to 43 years ago. 43 years ago in January my mom gave birth at 7 months to still born twins. I knew at that moment I would never forget this pain but unlike during my mother's era, I need to grieve - that I can do - it is just the day to day which is hard at this moment.
Almost two weeks later, I moved and gushed blood, moved again about 1/2 hour later and gushed blood. Went back to the doc and found that a blood clot had formed in the separation (apparently very common and usually goes away when the placenta takes over at twelve weeks). The baby looked great and the hearbeat was strong - my miscarriage risk just went to 5%.
A week later I went back for an ordinary visit. I was told I had a chromosonal abnormality which causes my blood to excessively clot. You can have many children and it is never a problem or you can be at risk for a later term miscarriage (20 weeks). The treatment was folic acid and a blood thinner (shot in my stomache everyday). The good news was the separation was not growing and seemed to be correcting itself. I would see the doc every two weeks for the duration of the pregnancy.
Two weeks later, 11w6days, a sonogram showed a strong heartbeat and the baby was touching its feet with its hands. Both dh and I left that visit so happy, all the problems were taken care of and the baby looked great. We were so happy and relieved. A few days later I had my downs syndrome marker sonogram, 12w3d, there was no heartbeat. The baby had died.
I have not been doing well. I cry on my commute to work and back home. I heard all I want for christmas and everytime I hear it I cry more because of the line something like, "I dont care about the presents under the christmas tree all I want for christmas is you." All I want for christmas is my baby.
When I told my mom, I saw the look in her eye of utter sadness and I saw her flashback to 43 years ago. 43 years ago in January my mom gave birth at 7 months to still born twins. I knew at that moment I would never forget this pain but unlike during my mother's era, I need to grieve - that I can do - it is just the day to day which is hard at this moment.