Miscarriage and in physical and emotional pain

[marissarose]

Hi
My name is Marissa and I found out last week, Nov 16 that my baby which was supposed to be nearing 11w had no heartbeat anymore. I had seen an ultrasound at what was supposed to be 9w and there was a heartbeat and baby there. They said it was only at 7 weeks growth and didn't seem to understand that it couldn't be that small because I knew when I conceived, I charted and never even had intercourse until after the positive preg test. I started spotting last Tuesday and had excruciating pain early Monday morning. I think my body was "delivering" the gestational sac as it finally did come out. I bled very heavily and was very scared but they did nothing for me at the hospital. The bleeding was less after that and it almost stopped but then started again. I'm tired but I can't sleep because that's when the grief washes over me. I'm in pain but nothing seems to help the cramps. My husband is tired so I don't want to keep him awake while I mourn. But I feel so empty and lonely.
Marissa

[alexandersmom]

MARISSA,
I JUST READ YOUR MESSAGE ON THE BOARD. I AM SO SORRY. I ALSO WENT TO THE DR LAST WEEK ON THE 15TH FOR MY 8 WEEK CHECKUP. I HAD BEEN THE WEEK BEFORE AT 7 WEEKS AND SAW A HEARTBEAT AND THE BABY ONLY MEASURED 6 WEEKS AND 1 DAY WHEN I WENT BACK LAST WEEK THE BABY MEASURED 6 WEEKS AND 5 DAYS BUT HAD NO HEARTBEAT. I AM IN THE SIT AND WAIT POSITION RIGHT NOW. IF MY BODY DOES NOT REALIZE THAT IT ISN'T VIABALE THEN I WILL BE HAVING A D&C NEXT WEEK. I AM STILL GRIEVING THE LOSS OF MY SON WHO WAS BORN SLEEPING JULY 12TH.
I DON;T THINK REALITY HAS SET IN YET AS I AM STILL EXPERIENCIG ALL THE SAME PREGNANCY SYMPTOMS. I KNOW ONCE I LOSE THIS BABY OR HAVE THE SURGERY I WILL BE A BASKET CASE. IF YOU NEED TO TALK EMAIL ME. AGIAN I AM SORRY
TINA

[blessedmom2four]

I'm so sorry about your loss. Unfortunatly its perfectly normal to be feeling the way you are right now. Its only been a week and everything is very fresh and new. Its been over four months for me and I still have horrible days. But even thought your husband is tired, take the time to talk to him. Its possible that he may want to talk about it too but doesnt want to hurt you. Right now talking is the only thing that will help you through this pian. In the meantime, please come here often and we will all try to help the best we can. Again I'm so sorry for your loss.
Liz

[Teardrops]

Oh sweetheart I am so sorry for your loss...we all know how you feel. The women here are so wonderful and supportive but it is so soon and the loss is so great ....please be patient with yourself and allow yourself to grieve. Take the time to do anything that makes you feel better and there is nothing wrong with remembering your sweet baby. That precious life meant so much to you....I've been up so many late nights crying for my little one I lost in april. Maybe it would help you to make a keepsake box for your little one .....that helped me a whole lot and of course coming here.....some women write poeim....or buy rememberence jewelry.....but I am sure you will find something that you treasure......BIG HUGS