thought I was stronger than this (pg mentioned)

[tess]

I haven't posted here in a while -- not for myself anyway. I've posted to try to help others, or to lend an ear or shoulder to cry on -- but for myself I've been "okay" for quite a while.

Not today. Today sucked. Today I felt like crying all day....I can't help thinking that these holidays coming up should be full of diapers and crys, giggles and sighs. These were to be my baby's first holidays.....and even though I'm pg again and due soon it still hurts to think of my baby (who my DD named Alana) who was lost in January.

I wrote this little poem today -- I want to share it here (I've already posted it on PAM and Potpourri)...

Well, here it is:

"Missing You"
by ~tess~

I'm missing you today,
and I just feel like crying.
Even with new life inside,
still I sometimes feel I'm dying.

With holidays fast approaching,
and your sister due soon after;
it saddens me to think
that I'll never hear YOUR laughter.

I'm so excited that we'll soon meet her!
I'm so happy I could burst!
But these holidays make me feel like crying;
They should be your first.

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Thanks so much for hearing me out.....

HUGS to you all.....
~tess~

[Teardrops]

I am so very sorry sweetie, I know how hard this is for you I wish I could just give you a hug....It is nice to be able to post to help alot of women on here but you must not forget yourself hun. You still are fragile and your heart is still mending. I know you heart is about to burst with joy for that sweet little girl your carrying but you are still sad...your poem is so beautiful thankyou for sharing it with me...it made me cry because I feel your pain

Here's a poem I saw one day it has helped me ....maybe it will help you too I sometimes read it and think of my little one playing in heaven:

I know you little, I love you lots, my love for you could fill 10 pots, 15 buckets, sixteen cans, 3 teacups and 4 dishpans.

all my love and .....BIG HUGS
please feel free to email me if you just need to talk

[sadmomof3and1angel]

That is a beautilful poem. Im sorry for your loss.

[tess]

I know you little, I love you lots, my love for you could fill 10 pots, 15 buckets, sixteen cans, 3 teacups and 4 dishpans.

Thank you so much ladies --
Teardrop, I have read that one before...I just love it. It is so simple, so true.

Hugs and prayers,
~tess~