Post by Colby's mommy on Nov 18, 2005 14:42:01 GMT -5
I don’t post much, I am very much so the quite type and keep to myself, but today is a hard day. It has been nine months now since we lost our baby girl.
I still cry for her everyday and am overwhelmed with grief. I feel like I am at a stand still. My dh and I are living 7 hours away from each at this point (we are both still students and that just seems to be where God put us right now). Being so far away from him has made this very difficult. I don’t want to be going this alone so I think I have chosen to suppress must of it and not let myself begin to move on. It has been nine months and I feel like I am still at square one.
Six months was a hard day for more than one reason (it was also the last day that dh and I had together before I had to leave for school), but today is harder because I’m alone and I don’t have anyone to physically comfort me.
I feel like if I had someone here to give me a hug every day and tell me it was going to be ok (at some point) then it would make it so much easier. I am so alone here and today I need a hug more than anything. I need to not be alone. I need someone to hold me while I am crying. I need physical comfort. I need to be with my dh. I know he is have a hard day too. Today would be hard even if we were together but being apart makes it even worst.
I still cry for her everyday and am overwhelmed with grief. I feel like I am at a stand still. My dh and I are living 7 hours away from each at this point (we are both still students and that just seems to be where God put us right now). Being so far away from him has made this very difficult. I don’t want to be going this alone so I think I have chosen to suppress must of it and not let myself begin to move on. It has been nine months and I feel like I am still at square one.
Six months was a hard day for more than one reason (it was also the last day that dh and I had together before I had to leave for school), but today is harder because I’m alone and I don’t have anyone to physically comfort me.
I feel like if I had someone here to give me a hug every day and tell me it was going to be ok (at some point) then it would make it so much easier. I am so alone here and today I need a hug more than anything. I need to not be alone. I need someone to hold me while I am crying. I need physical comfort. I need to be with my dh. I know he is have a hard day too. Today would be hard even if we were together but being apart makes it even worst.
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