Post by swoods14 on Sept 28, 2015 16:35:25 GMT -5
Hey, everyone....
I lost my first pregnancy one week ago (9/20/15). I had to have a D and C the next day because there was too much left over...
It's been really traumatic for me. I was 6wks at the time, the pregnancy was a surprise and my boyfriend and I were very excited. But, last Sunday, I started bleeding.
The Friday before I rushed in for an ultrasound after they warned me that my HcG levels were low. But my baby was FINE. It even had a PERFECT heartbeat--126bpm. Then, on Saturday, I started to bleed a little bit. We panicked and I rushed into the ER. Another ultrasound, and AGAIN, the baby was just fine.
Then on Sunday, the bleeding got worse and the cramping came in waves, almost like mild contractions. I KNEW what was happening and everyone kept telling me I was overreacting, that I was young and I would be fine. The bleeding go so bad that I went to the bathroom and sat on the toilet. what a bad idea. The gestational sac came out right there and I didn't know what to do. I yelled for my boyfriend and we had to fish it out of there with a Tupperware lid. It was horrible. I immediately turned to the shower and threw up until I couldn't anymore. I can't get the image out of my head.
My boyfriend was GREAT for three days--then I went back to work. Now he shows NO emotion over it, spends hours playing video games while i try to put the house together and keep myself together, and even told me that we've "been spending a lot of time together" and that "some space would be good". I get that I've been a little more snuggly lately, maybe even a little clingy. But we LIVE TOGETHER. I can't help that when he comes home, I'm there....and it's been a WEEK. I think I'm doing a pretty good job of coping. I went back to work -- i work at a homeless shelter -- after just two days. I'm not in pieces but i am sad! Is it just me and my hormones, or do i have a good reason for feeling very, VERY hurt and resentful right now??
I lost my first pregnancy one week ago (9/20/15). I had to have a D and C the next day because there was too much left over...
It's been really traumatic for me. I was 6wks at the time, the pregnancy was a surprise and my boyfriend and I were very excited. But, last Sunday, I started bleeding.
The Friday before I rushed in for an ultrasound after they warned me that my HcG levels were low. But my baby was FINE. It even had a PERFECT heartbeat--126bpm. Then, on Saturday, I started to bleed a little bit. We panicked and I rushed into the ER. Another ultrasound, and AGAIN, the baby was just fine.
Then on Sunday, the bleeding got worse and the cramping came in waves, almost like mild contractions. I KNEW what was happening and everyone kept telling me I was overreacting, that I was young and I would be fine. The bleeding go so bad that I went to the bathroom and sat on the toilet. what a bad idea. The gestational sac came out right there and I didn't know what to do. I yelled for my boyfriend and we had to fish it out of there with a Tupperware lid. It was horrible. I immediately turned to the shower and threw up until I couldn't anymore. I can't get the image out of my head.
My boyfriend was GREAT for three days--then I went back to work. Now he shows NO emotion over it, spends hours playing video games while i try to put the house together and keep myself together, and even told me that we've "been spending a lot of time together" and that "some space would be good". I get that I've been a little more snuggly lately, maybe even a little clingy. But we LIVE TOGETHER. I can't help that when he comes home, I'm there....and it's been a WEEK. I think I'm doing a pretty good job of coping. I went back to work -- i work at a homeless shelter -- after just two days. I'm not in pieces but i am sad! Is it just me and my hormones, or do i have a good reason for feeling very, VERY hurt and resentful right now??