Post by katsmom on Mar 4, 2013 23:27:18 GMT -5
I.got a bfp 4 weeks ago... after only 2 months of officially ttc... I had mixed thoughts about possibly having another child. I've suffered a stillbirth and a mc, but have also been blessed with 2 prefect healthy boys aged 7 & 6 ((-next month))..) along with a soon to be 14 yr old step daughter I've raised as my own...My husband had been jokingly hinting around that he wanted another, but I was still trying to get used to the idea of a #4 when that second line appeared on the test... I need to vent!
I saw the dr today. measured me at 10w2d!!! how is that even possible? I KNOW I had my monthly friend in December. and it wasn't just heavy spotting or abbreivated in any manner... I was expecting to hear that I was maybe 6-7 weeks max. granted it isn't a huge time frame off here, but I'm still shocked. I'm.still trying to wrap my.mind around the fact that I'm really pregnant again, this quickly... and I'm days away from the second trimester?!
I'm freaking out. I feel like I'm having constant anxiety attacks all the time. we went to dinner with another couple last week and I naturally passed on a glass of wine (wehaven't told anyone beside immediate family, excluding our children) ... I felt like I would faint with worry that someone would inquire why I passed on a glass, especially when our friends recommended I try a specific kind... I had to excuse myself and ended up in tears in the restroom and I have no idea why. sigh. I swear pregnancy hormones always hit me hard.
at work the other day, someone made a comment about howI lost and have kept off 60lbs for over a year. I just nervously laughed and said something along the lines of "if only I could keep it off longer..." and awkwardly excused myself... again I'm in the restroom in tears and I don't know why.
no morning sickness, no real weight gain yet... I should be living in pregnancy euphoria, but I'm just a.nervous wreck about everything and nothing all at the same time. I should be happy. I am happy, I think? I don't even know how I feel...sigh.
I saw the dr today. measured me at 10w2d!!! how is that even possible? I KNOW I had my monthly friend in December. and it wasn't just heavy spotting or abbreivated in any manner... I was expecting to hear that I was maybe 6-7 weeks max. granted it isn't a huge time frame off here, but I'm still shocked. I'm.still trying to wrap my.mind around the fact that I'm really pregnant again, this quickly... and I'm days away from the second trimester?!
I'm freaking out. I feel like I'm having constant anxiety attacks all the time. we went to dinner with another couple last week and I naturally passed on a glass of wine (wehaven't told anyone beside immediate family, excluding our children) ... I felt like I would faint with worry that someone would inquire why I passed on a glass, especially when our friends recommended I try a specific kind... I had to excuse myself and ended up in tears in the restroom and I have no idea why. sigh. I swear pregnancy hormones always hit me hard.
at work the other day, someone made a comment about howI lost and have kept off 60lbs for over a year. I just nervously laughed and said something along the lines of "if only I could keep it off longer..." and awkwardly excused myself... again I'm in the restroom in tears and I don't know why.
no morning sickness, no real weight gain yet... I should be living in pregnancy euphoria, but I'm just a.nervous wreck about everything and nothing all at the same time. I should be happy. I am happy, I think? I don't even know how I feel...sigh.
