Post by alycat33 on Dec 23, 2011 22:36:31 GMT -5
Hi there,
Well I wrote the painful word in my title. My youngest (3.5) was recently diagnosed with Autism. I am in pain. It has been a few years since I have visited this board, and I am happy to see this special needs category. He was a very much wanted and tried for baby, and I am so happy he is alive and thriving, BUT...
I am scared, anxious and sooo sad. I need this boy to have a happy, full life with all the normal relationships and experiences he deserves. I have no idea if that is what will happen, and this is were the anxiety won't go away.
I am writing now because I am DREADING seeing my neurotypical nephew over the holidays (one WEEK younger than my son, smart as you can be, very advanced child), and my sister (whom I am not extremely close too, too much age gap and a very different personality and upbringing) is peeved that I have been keeping them at a distance. She says he probably doesn't have Autism, he is just behind a bit, and how her son is crying that he can't see us and how this pains her son. I am seriously in the throws of depression and so is my hubby and even my 9 yr old (sensitive) is very sad for his brother whom he adores.
I do have an older sister by 3 yrs who is my soul mate and a constant source of support and comfort, this woman is my angel, she is incapable of having kids due to past radiation treatments (cervical cancer survivor), but I can only cry to her so much before feeling like I am asking too much of her.
I know things could be much, much worse, compared to much of the suffering on this board, but its like this; ...my pinky finger has been severed and yes, it could have been my whole arm, or all four limbs. For this I am blessed to have what I have with my children, having them here with me. But..... I sure miss that pinky, and how it does ache (and aches, and aches). That is my pain right now.
thanks for listening, I just had to vent a bit
Well I wrote the painful word in my title. My youngest (3.5) was recently diagnosed with Autism. I am in pain. It has been a few years since I have visited this board, and I am happy to see this special needs category. He was a very much wanted and tried for baby, and I am so happy he is alive and thriving, BUT...
I am scared, anxious and sooo sad. I need this boy to have a happy, full life with all the normal relationships and experiences he deserves. I have no idea if that is what will happen, and this is were the anxiety won't go away.
I am writing now because I am DREADING seeing my neurotypical nephew over the holidays (one WEEK younger than my son, smart as you can be, very advanced child), and my sister (whom I am not extremely close too, too much age gap and a very different personality and upbringing) is peeved that I have been keeping them at a distance. She says he probably doesn't have Autism, he is just behind a bit, and how her son is crying that he can't see us and how this pains her son. I am seriously in the throws of depression and so is my hubby and even my 9 yr old (sensitive) is very sad for his brother whom he adores.
I do have an older sister by 3 yrs who is my soul mate and a constant source of support and comfort, this woman is my angel, she is incapable of having kids due to past radiation treatments (cervical cancer survivor), but I can only cry to her so much before feeling like I am asking too much of her.
I know things could be much, much worse, compared to much of the suffering on this board, but its like this; ...my pinky finger has been severed and yes, it could have been my whole arm, or all four limbs. For this I am blessed to have what I have with my children, having them here with me. But..... I sure miss that pinky, and how it does ache (and aches, and aches). That is my pain right now.
thanks for listening, I just had to vent a bit