My 12 week old angel May 22, 2017 8:31:39 GMT -5 via mobile
Post by leapdaybaby96 on May 22, 2017 8:31:39 GMT -5
I want to start by saying I am 21 years old, and this was my first and unplanned pregnancy. I found out at about 6 or 7 weeks and to tell the truth I cried and cried and cried. This is not what I wanted for myself or for my boyfriend at the time. But we knew an abortion was out of the question. The thought of having a child with the man I love grew on me, and I couldn't have been more excited. But things were very stressful and things got hard. We were arguing and fighting frequently, trying to figure out how we could support a baby. Trying to find another house to move into etc... Saturday May 20 I was experiencing light cramping with no blood. We were on a road trip and we stop at a Busy Bee. I go to use the bathroom and when I wiped, there was light pink/brown spotting on my napkin, and I knew something wasn't right. At 12 weeks why was I spotting? I told my boyfriend I was scared and he told me not to worry. As the night progressed on the spotting turned into light red blood, filling a panty liner at this point. I figured I would wait it out as it has been less than 24 hours. I know some women experience bleeding during pregnancy so I tried not to stress about it too much. There was not much cramping and the bleeding wasnt very heavy at this point. Sunday we made our way home and there was no cramping, not very much blood. As the night progressed my cramps have started up again and at this point there was a little more blood coming than the previous night. At around 9 pm the cramps are getting very severe and my boyfriend was asleep at this point. I did not want to startle him so I sat on the toilet and for about an hour I was having labor like cramps within minutes of each other with heavy blood loss and plenty of blood clots. I finally found the energy between the severe cramps and my tears to wake my boyfriend up and make my way to the ER. I knew at this point there was no chance our beloved baby would survive. I prayed to God, whatever my fate was, whatever my child's fate was, just please let the pain go away. About a quarter way to the hospital there was no more pain, no more cramps, but still bleeding a lot. I told him I would like to go home because I didn't want to hear a doctor say there was nothing they could do. So we got home and I fell asleep. It is around 1130 at this time. Around 3 am I wake up, soaked my pad, soaked through the 2 pairs of shorts I was wearing, but still no pain. I go to the bathroom and still leaking some blood, I wipe, and feel as if there is a clot stuck in there. So I push and out comes my sweet 12 week old baby still in the sac. I am still traumatized and I am grieving so hard. My heart is so heavy and I am so pleased to have found this forum and know I am not alone. Being so young I am scared I will not be able to carry a baby again. It is not easy to accept what happened. Please pray for me that I can get through this painful, traumatizing experience and that I can heal. My prayers go out to all of those who have also lost.