multiple non consecutive miscarriages

[lorib543]

This is my situation.

I just had my 3rd miscarriage. But they have not been consecutive miscarriages.

At the age of 16 I had my first pg and my first mc at 12 weeks.
At 17 had pg #2 and a full term healthy baby boy
At 19 had pg #3 and mc #2 at 5 weeks
At 22 had pg #4 and a healthy but 7 weeks premature baby girl
At 23 had pg #5 and a healthy but 3 1/2 weeks premature baby boy.

Getting pregnant is not my issue, my ex husband used to say all you had to do is share a housecoat with me and I would get pregnant its holding it in there till its ready that is the problem.

I thought I was done. Now I am 37 and just a couple days after being at the dr setting up a time to get a tubal ligation done I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant. A week later at 5 weeks I had mc #3. I had no idea how much I wanted to have another baby till I found out I was pregnant and am absolutely devastated. We have decided to give it one more try but after 3 miscarriages and 2 premature births and at the age of 37 I am terrified. I need some hope that I can carry another baby. My dr seems to think my age is not a factor and I am healthy enough to do so but i am still very frightened.

Someone please, some words of comfort would be wonderful.

[jban]

I'm so sorry you are experiencing such a loss. How are you feeling? Have you done any blood tests or considered accupuncture? My husband and I just experienced our second miscarriage. This one was harder than the last because I was further along and actually "passed the sac." In a way, it was comforting to see what beauty we had made. Exactly one week ago we went in to get our US. I had been very worried because my accupuncturist had been doing HCG level tests and had been worried because I had "Slow rising" HCG levels. I was very worried but my family told me they all had a good feeling. Well, the morning of the US I had some slight spotting, brownish-pink in color. I feel like it was a warning. I went in early and sure enough there was no heartbeat. The doctor said the baby had stopped growing and it's heart stopped beating at 7 weeks (I was 8w6d). I said I wanted to miscarry naturally (I knew I didn't want a d&c). Later that night I was just absolutely beside myself, I knew I couldn't begin healing knowing the baby was in me and wasn't alive. I went back the next day and they gave me misoprostol. I ended up passing the baby on June 7, though I am still bleeding and started bleeding the day I had the pill inserted. I am feeling so sad and feel like I can't grieve properly because I don't want to make my husband sad. I haven't been crying for a couple days but today I really wanted to. I didn't when he was here though, I told him I was sad. He is so sweet and loving and tells me the hardest part is getting pregnant and it's all going to be okay because I know I can get pregnant. I just felt so sad and I don't want to do unhealthy behavior due to not grieving properly. I haven't drank, but I was sober until my first miscarriage and then I drank after it, relapsing for a month or two. I won't do it again because I want my body to be as healthy as possible, so I needed an outlet to express my sadness. I know you'll understand.. What do you do to help cope with the sadness? I don't want to do anything. I just want to lay down and watch t.v.. My accupuncturist said he can help me get pregnant with oriental medicine, and he had one woman who had three miscarriages and now has a 2 1/2 year old. He said it's very important not to get pregnant in the next 6 months, which I know isn't a long time but it seems like it is. I believe him. I have hope. I'm just sad. I had to "unfollow" all of my pregnant friends on fb. It makes me want to cry and I get so jealous of them. I hope you are getting the support you need. Tell me how you are feeling and what you do to heal. Thank you. xox