Had our 5th miscarriage in March

[momof5angels]

I use to be on the site a long time ago. But haven't been in years. We just had our 5th miscarriage in March. 

[amanda1119]

Just had my fifth miscarriage as well, I understand your grief and I'm so sorry for your losses ((hugs)) it's rough stuff, I feel very alone and I suffer in silence with it. Maybe we can help each other

[momof5angels]

So sorry. How far along were you? ((HUGS))

[jli]

I am looking for a closed group as well I just had a baby in March she was stillborn. I have been devastated and feeling all alone. I desperately need someone to talk to who understands how I am feeling. My friends have tried but since they have never been through it. They don't really understand. I have tried a counsellor but again she does not understand my pain. It is only after reading posts on this site that I feel I have found people who are feeling like I feel. Any info about a support group or closed group would be appreciated

[momof5angels]

So sorry

[jban]

I'm so sorry you are experiencing such a loss. How are you feeling? Have you done any blood tests or considered accupuncture? My husband and I just experienced our second miscarriage. This one was harder than the last because I was further along and actually "passed the sac." In a way, it was comforting to see what beauty we had made. Exactly one week ago we went in to get our US. I had been very worried because my accupuncturist had been doing HCG level tests and had been worried because I had "Slow rising" HCG levels. I was very worried but my family told me they all had a good feeling. Well, the morning of the US I had some slight spotting, brownish-pink in color. I feel like it was a warning. I went in early and sure enough there was no heartbeat. The doctor said the baby had stopped growing and it's heart stopped beating at 7 weeks (I was 8w6d). I said I wanted to miscarry naturally (I knew I didn't want a d&c). Later that night I was just absolutely beside myself, I knew I couldn't begin healing knowing the baby was in me and wasn't alive. I went back the next day and they gave me misoprostol. I ended up passing the baby on June 7, though I am still bleeding and started bleeding the day I had the pill inserted. I am feeling so sad and feel like I can't grieve properly because I don't want to make my husband sad. I haven't been crying for a couple days but today I really wanted to. I didn't when he was here though, I told him I was sad. He is so sweet and loving and tells me the hardest part is getting pregnant and it's all going to be okay because I know I can get pregnant. I just felt so sad and I don't want to do unhealthy behavior due to not grieving properly. I haven't drank, but I was sober until my first miscarriage and then I drank after it, relapsing for a month or two. I won't do it again because I want my body to be as healthy as possible, so I needed an outlet to express my sadness. I know you ladies understand. What do you do to help cope with the sadness? I don't want to do anything. I just want to lay down and watch t.v.. My accupuncturist said he can help me get pregnant with oriental medicine, and he had one woman who had three miscarriages and now has a 2 1/2 year old. I believe him. I have hope. I'm just sad. I hope you are getting the support you need. Tell me how you are feeling and what you do to heal. Thank you, ladies. XOx

[momof5angels]

Thank you. Yes RE did blood tests and things on me and hubby in 2010-2011 before and after 4th loss. But everything came back normal on us. so no reason found for losses. Sorry about your losses.