Post by jezebel on Feb 6, 2014 10:54:38 GMT -5
I can't belief all that has gone one I am in the grips of depression as we speak, In nov. a baby was took of life support then my Aunt died the 23rd of Dec. then my husband uncle died he just gave up to live then my husband brother's wife comitted suiside then yesterday branch kin died of a heart attack and I found out going to the denist I had a blood pressure of 125 on the lower number I went to the daoctor and now I am on a high blood pressure pill celesstorol pill pain pill for my herian=ted back as well as a muscule relaxer and a pil for if I get sick for all the pills I take. I take
It is no surpurise that she took her life but it is the manner of how she did it with a shot gun 410 she wa always high strung and she had a lot of mental issuees. I thought of going to see her and maybe helping her but I never did I blame myself for not being a better friend but she would talk to way out there and woudn't listen to what you say that it was hard to get her to understand what you were saying she had been put way a few time and her husband my husbands brother now have what I have the if and ands but I told him there was no way to stop this she would of found a way to do it if not the way she did it. He found her and I feel sorry he had to be the one he didn't roll her over but I am glad she had her face blown off the morticain said they was nothing he could do and nothng to work with. HE asked how I got through with my son's death I thold him the first 6 mos. are the hardestr for me having to accept the fact but it get better I still have time as today is one of them but it gets easier. I told him this will never go away it will be with you for the rest of your life but you jusy learn to live with it. I would do anything I can to take all this from him he is a good guy first to give help take food to someone he knows that doesn't have it hunts deer and give most of it away to friend or people that need it he did all he could and more for his wife but he thinks if he was there she would not of did this I think no matter he most likely would of heard the gun shot I think if so he would be put away.
I try to be as good of a freind as I can be and for somereason I faile his wife I have the same thought s that if I was around her more maybe she wuld not of did this I KNOW it got really bad after her father died around christmas I thougtht she was going to be drove to kill herself he family was just awful text bad things and one brother said he was a witch and that he would do spells and this scared her WHAT FAMILY DOES THIS her family did care about her they tormented her all her life I feel for her but didn't know this till after her death a person can only take so much but I think and don't get me wrong I would want her to do this awful act but in light of how her family was with her I think death was best she is not in torment any more and at peace FINALLY for how ever long Heaven is. When my son and father died my sister took care of all paper work for dad and David I had to sigh n a form stating I was letting gale handle all the stuff and she was to pay all taxes and all the stuff that had to be done she did a good job but his brother doesn't have anyone like this and is at a loss to how to do things I said to hire a lawyer that does this and he will help with it
If ony we could turn back time and replay the things that went wrong but in this case of suicide I don't know if I would replay it I feel she is better off and having all the torment stopped was way better then her to be here it may be harsh but if you have even been teased in your life and imagine this for you whole life from family members maybe you can understand why I think this. She was a good person and loved her cats she didn't have any friends only her cats I have had this to where all I had was my dog and no one else. AShe was 49 and I think to young to do this but I think she is finally happy I would not want to take this only time she is happy away from her so I wouldn't go back to change it it is a awful deed she did TRUE but maybe it IS FOR THE BEST.
Thanks for listeing
Rhayden
It is no surpurise that she took her life but it is the manner of how she did it with a shot gun 410 she wa always high strung and she had a lot of mental issuees. I thought of going to see her and maybe helping her but I never did I blame myself for not being a better friend but she would talk to way out there and woudn't listen to what you say that it was hard to get her to understand what you were saying she had been put way a few time and her husband my husbands brother now have what I have the if and ands but I told him there was no way to stop this she would of found a way to do it if not the way she did it. He found her and I feel sorry he had to be the one he didn't roll her over but I am glad she had her face blown off the morticain said they was nothing he could do and nothng to work with. HE asked how I got through with my son's death I thold him the first 6 mos. are the hardestr for me having to accept the fact but it get better I still have time as today is one of them but it gets easier. I told him this will never go away it will be with you for the rest of your life but you jusy learn to live with it. I would do anything I can to take all this from him he is a good guy first to give help take food to someone he knows that doesn't have it hunts deer and give most of it away to friend or people that need it he did all he could and more for his wife but he thinks if he was there she would not of did this I think no matter he most likely would of heard the gun shot I think if so he would be put away.
I try to be as good of a freind as I can be and for somereason I faile his wife I have the same thought s that if I was around her more maybe she wuld not of did this I KNOW it got really bad after her father died around christmas I thougtht she was going to be drove to kill herself he family was just awful text bad things and one brother said he was a witch and that he would do spells and this scared her WHAT FAMILY DOES THIS her family did care about her they tormented her all her life I feel for her but didn't know this till after her death a person can only take so much but I think and don't get me wrong I would want her to do this awful act but in light of how her family was with her I think death was best she is not in torment any more and at peace FINALLY for how ever long Heaven is. When my son and father died my sister took care of all paper work for dad and David I had to sigh n a form stating I was letting gale handle all the stuff and she was to pay all taxes and all the stuff that had to be done she did a good job but his brother doesn't have anyone like this and is at a loss to how to do things I said to hire a lawyer that does this and he will help with it
If ony we could turn back time and replay the things that went wrong but in this case of suicide I don't know if I would replay it I feel she is better off and having all the torment stopped was way better then her to be here it may be harsh but if you have even been teased in your life and imagine this for you whole life from family members maybe you can understand why I think this. She was a good person and loved her cats she didn't have any friends only her cats I have had this to where all I had was my dog and no one else. AShe was 49 and I think to young to do this but I think she is finally happy I would not want to take this only time she is happy away from her so I wouldn't go back to change it it is a awful deed she did TRUE but maybe it IS FOR THE BEST.
Thanks for listeing
Rhayden