best friend/ soul mate killed in car crash

[nikmic24]

I lost my best friend in the whole world and the love of my life(though he didn't know) almost 3 years ago now. I'm only 21 years old and have not been able to have a relationship that's serious enough because I can't get over the fact that I believe I lost my soul mate in that car crash. I didn't have a chance to grieve his loss either because his cell phone was damaged in the car crash, they held the memorial ceremony and no one contacted me, and I found out he was gone via text message when his mom finally got his phone working again (and now uses it as her primary line). I'm not angry with her, just sad that I didn't get to be there. I honestly don't believe that anyone has a story similar to or the same as mine and I think it would really help to talk to someone who had something similar happen. I've had a lot of loss in my life and the people in my life don't need to hear about it anymore. That's why I'm posting here.
If you have any replys they would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you

[jezebel]

I am sorry it is awful may I suggest this I don't know what you are felling but maybe I can say since I have lost my son the feeling of loss is so damaging I tend to think I am damaged for life change in some way and not think the same way as I use to I can't explain it but maybe you feel like this in some way.

I try to look on the positive though day I have a really hard time with My son is in PA as is my father who went the same way as my son did and my mother she died years before I live in NC I have 12 hour drive (I don't like to fly) to get to my son but If I may go to where you soul mate is and tell him all you can don't fret of anyone else seeing you talking to him I have seen most that go to the loved ones grave they talk to them.

I don't know why you were not told I would be very angry if your not you are a better person then I am. Try to hold onto the good times you had and don't recall bad times maybe you will see signs of him you will think your nuts but your not I hope you can dream of him I finally dreamed of my son and I feel better once I did, I hope it happens for you.

I am so sorry for your loss if I can be a ear for you please email me [e-mail]

Rhayden