It's Time to Get to Know Each Other More!

[mannysgirl]

Well hello all!

I'm Jotrellia...Everyone calls me Jo. I've been married to my phenomenal husband Manny since 2000 and we have two precious Maltese puppies who I adore. I found SG in December of 2005 just weeks after my first loss. I used to post under the name hard2bawoman. It certainly has been at times. I joined PAL about 11 months later and went on to have a beautiful daughter named Grai Simone, who we call Graisi. Her precious twin was lost along the way but we are so blessed to have her. I rejoined SG after a third loss in November and I'm currently expecting again! I've met some incredible women here who continue to not only be my friends online but irl too! I've had the pleasure of meeting a couple of them and hope to meet more. I have needed SG so much in the years since my painful journey began and these women have taken me through a lot. I'm so glad when I had to come back, there was still a place like this to come.

[rnandmom]

Hi, everyone. I'm Rachele (pronounced Ray-shell) and I live in NC. My husband and I will have been married 13 years this August. We got married when I was nearly six months pregnant with my son Perry, who is now 12. Twenty-two months after Perry was born, Sydney arrived. When she was a little over a year I became pregnant again, and lost that baby at 10.5 weeks. I suffered a second miscarriage nine months later at 9.5 weeks.

I joined SG in early April of this year, after experiencing my third miscarriage on March 17th. I was finally being tested for possible causes of my losses, and we were anxious to try and conceive again. I was diagnosed with heterozygous factor V Leiden right after finding out I was pregnant again in mid-April. I was put on Lovenox, and we were so excited and hopeful that this pregnancy would be successful. Sadly, I ended up being diagnosed with a blighted ovum earlier this week, and just had a D&C on Wednesday, 5/19.

My husband immediately said he didn't want to try again, and that has had me heartbroken. I am definitely not ready to try again right away, but I would like to at least be able to hope that one day we'll have our third child, and our family will be complete.

I am so glad that I found this site because I finally have a place to come where people get it. I hate that we've all joined together under such sad circumstances, but I am so honored to have such a wonderful group of caring women, who understand my grief, to talk to.

[momtopatience]

Hello,

My Name is Tori I am from Chapel Hill Tn. I'm married to Jerry and have three earthly children Kaplin 16, Simplicity 11, and Patience 5. I found my way here to Silent Grief Three year ago when I had 19 week pregnancy loss of my daughter Star. If it wasn't for silent grief I do not know how i would have made it Thur.- Honestly.
After the loss of my daughter I had some health issues. And recently had another loss. However I still have hope at age 38 to continue on to have my rainbow baby.
My hobbies are my children i will be honest we love going places, taking pictures, my daughters and I love praciting singing, I have high hopes for all my children.
My son kaplin plans to be the next Dr.PHIL and claims I will be his first patient...Ha ha- honestly he plans to be to something big.
My daughter Simplicity has dreams of being a singer- I believe it, and daughter Patience it changes every week but I know she could be president

Looking forward to making many more friends here, and very thankful i found silent grief when my heart needed it the most.

[joanie]

Hi everyone!

My name is Joanie, I first joined sg in 2004 when I was pregnant with my daughter Allyssa. I actually stumbled on sg by accident but I am so glad I did.
I had my son Gary at age 19 and my daughter Tabbatha at 21.

When Tabby was born some how the umbillical cord amongst other things were left inside me. I had her on Friday Oct 5 1990. I left the hospital not feeling well and doubled over with cramps and a fever. I was told I was dehydrated and that cramping was normal with my second child, so what did I know I believed them and went home on that Sunday Oct 7.

While home I was still not feeling well and I did not look that well (looking back on pics taken) That Wednesday Oct 10 the umbillical cord started releasing itself and I was rushed to the hospital. (sorry TMI) My blood pressure was low and I had an infection. They had to do an emergency D & C right there in the emergency room. After that I was told that I may never be able to have children again.

When I became pregnant in 7/96 I was so happy. I thought I was never going to be able to have any more children and to find out I was just made me feel better While at work in October of 96 I started spoting and I went quickly to the hospital. They told me based upon the blood work that I was still pregnant and suggested bed rest. While on Bedrest I started bleeding very heavily so I went to another hospital. I was told at that time that the baby had stopped growing at 5 weeks and that there was no heart beat but I had to wait another week just to be sure. I waited a whole other week, during this week I kept telling my baby that I was sorry and that she was loved, I kept rubbing my belly.

I went back to the hospital 1 week later 10/9 and they had to do a D & C. I felt so empty. So after that I thought that I couldnt have any more children and I thought if I did get pregnant that things may end up the same.

So in January 2004 I became pregnant again. I was extremely happy and extremely frightened at the same time. I made an appt. with the same dr. that took care of me in 1996. She was awesome! Thank goodness everything went well with that pregnancy.

And now 6 years later Im pregnant again. Right now Im 5 weeks pregnant and hoping for a long boring pregnancy

If it wasnt for sg I dont know how I would have made it through. When I was nervous, I was given reassurance which I definitely needed. Beside all the warmth and caring on this board! Sorry this post was so long and thank you for reading. Thank you Clara and Joe for such an awesome board!

[younmm23]

My name is Ellie, and I joined here in January of 2010 a few weeks after losing my baby Josie on Dec 20 2009. I would have been due early august. This site saved me.. im sure i'd be in a padded room now without it. I just got engaged to a wonderful man (whom I started dating after my baby's father broke up with me) and we will be getting married next year, after which we will start our TTC journey! Which, totally terrifies me, but I'm trying to just breeeaaaathe.

I work at an insurance company (if you have questions about how insurance works, please let me know, I can give you ideas of what questions to ask and explain terminology), I have a degree in Communication with a minor in music (I can sing opera, jazz, whatever, bring it on), I'm moving soon to a gorgeous townhome with my DF, and I love going to state parks for swimming, camping, hiking, and relaxing. I also adore reading (Kindle!!). I joke that Candace is my "SG Mom" because she helped me through many a meltdown in my first few weeks here. I'm so blessed to have so many SG sisters here, even though I wish we could have all met under better circumstances.

[raeni]

Hi,

I'm Renee, born and raised here in Chicago, lived a little all over the country, but ultimately always find my way back here. I'd eventually like to move back to Wisconsin, where I spent half my childhood. I work as a paralegal for a bankruptcy attorney in the heart of the city, and realizing I am sooooo not a city person anymore after bumping elbows all day long.

I joined here just a couple weeks ago, after my miscarriage at 6 weeks. It was a surprise, but wanted, pregnancy. My boyfriend left the day after we found out I was miscarrying, and I've been picking up the pieces since. I don't post here very often as I'm going through my grief in my own, private way right now, but I come here everyday to read the lovely, heartwarming and touching posts from these beautiful mommies.

[Debs]

My name is Debs; most of you probably know me, but I'll give a little history anyway.

I joined SG in early 2008 while awaiting an inevitable 3rd miscarriage. I cope with stress by researching, and as I was looking for more info on miscarriage, I ran across this site.

I have been married to my "forever" for 14 years and have seven beautiful children, but they have not come easily. My oldest is 13 years old, born in May 1997. Her heart stopped beating during labor. Thankfully they pulled her out quickly, and although she was in nicu for 4 days, she came through beautifully. She is a scientist at heart, and a joy to be around.

Jessica was born in 1998, and other than 4 bouts with mastitis and endless ear infections, we had it easier the second time around.

Cassandra was born in 2000. We have always said that she was the most patient kid in the world, and her birth was no exception. They induced me when she was two weeks late! I hemorrhaged when she was four weeks old, which was really scary, but the rest was so easy with her. She was a content baby, and is a content child, as well.

Hyrum was next. we weren't preventing, but were surprised to have him only 14 months after Cass. We still say he was waiting around in heaven for all of these girls to get her, so he could have his turn. I bled heavily throughout the 2nd trimester, so we spent much of the pregnancy thinking we would lose him any day. Thankfully he was a fighter (and still is ).

We wanted another within a couple of years of HY, but we had a hard time with ttc. When we finally succeeded, the pregnancy lasted less than two weeks. I was devastated. Thankfully we were able to try again and conceived Seth, who starts kindergarten next year.

Noah came shortly after Seth. The pregnancy with him was surprisingly uneventful, other than a case of GD and strep b. I actually had a harder time attaching to the pregnancy than I did with seth, though. I spent the whole time waiting for the other shoe to drop. He was very easy to love once born, though.

When Noah was approaching his second birthday, I had the strongest feeling that despite our "perfect" family of three girls and three boys, we needed to have another one. We conceived very quickly, but lost the baby very quickly as well. I wasn't quite as devastated with this second miscarriage; I told myself that I needed to pick myself up and try again. We did, and were expecting again a few months later. The pregnancy seemed to go along fine until one night I have what I believe were kidney pains. I was better by morning, but asked for an u/s to be sure. I was devastated to find that the baby had died weeks earlier. I had another early m/c a few months later, and requested testing. They found that I have developed a clotting disorder, and the clots were most likely cutting off blood supply to the placenta. I conceived and carried my beautiful Sophia. There were some issues, but nothing that couldn't be managed.

Unfortunately during delivery the cord prolapsed, and her heart rate plummeted. By the time she was born she was unresponsive, with no heart beat. Thankfully on her way back to heaven my little angel decided to turn around for a visit, and they were able to get her heart and her breathing to start within about 5 minutes. They were still highly concerned about brain damage, but that miracle girl seems to be healthy and normal in every way.

I have miscarried once since, and are trying one more time. I am not sure if we will succeed this time due to age, but I have been richly blessed either way. I have seen miracles in my life; I could not ask for more.

Career wise, I have my M.S. in Family Life Education with an emphasis in Human Development and certification in Early Childhood Education. Before my oldest was born I was the Education Director for the Migrant Head start program throughout my state. I speak spanish fluently, and that has helped immensely. I am lucky enough to be able to stay home with my kids. I volunteer a lot, running several 4H clubs and a special service program at my childrens' school. I deal with stress through research, so if it has to do with pregnancy, miscarriage, or kids I have probably read a medical article or two on it!

I am grateful to know some people from different boards, experiencing all types of loss, and I consider many on this site to be dear friends. I am grateful for this place.

[Hayley's Mom]

I'm so glad this board is up! SG has really been my saving grace through these last few difficult months, and I've been so thankful for all the sisters I have found here.

I'm Mandy, and I joined after finding out February 1 that we had lost our precious Hayley, our first pregnancy. During an u/s at 11 wks, the doctor said she hadn't made it past 6 weeks. It has been a difficult journey since then, as there is a suspected PMP (the doctor messed up and didn't test the fetus), and my hcg levels have still not dropped to 0 in the 15 weeks since my D&C. So we're still working on the recovery process, but I've been very thankful for having such a supportive DH.

Career-wise I have the best job ever -- getting blown up, shot, and occasionally held hostage. I'm an actress that works for a film studio that does "hyper-realistic" military training, and I absolutely love it. In my spare time I enjoy theatre, voice acting, sewing, all sorts of artistic endeavors, and volunteering a lot of time with my church. I also enjoy spending time with my furbaby, a miniature American Eskimo dog named Apollo.

[1angel3miracles]

I'm B. I'm 23. I'm recently seperated from my husband. I had a premie in 2002 (who lived for 2 1/2hrs), followed by Z in 2006 (my only full-term baby), then A was born at 28wks in 2008, Then H at 31wks in 2009, now I'm pg again w/ #4 and due in Nov. I've also had many m/cs.

Z has some minor speech delays, but will be starting full-time jk in Sept at an all-french school (none of that french-immersion garbage for my kids)

A's cord was prolapsed and he was born by emergency c-section. As a result, he has developmental delays, and although I'm still waiting for another hearing test, I'm 99% sure he's completely deaf. The other theory right now is that he may have some form of autism and that's why he doesn't respond when people are talking to him.

H is my little wonder-baby and is advanced for his actual age (even more so for his corrected age). He was also born by emergency c-section following a placental abruption.

I LOVE to bake. I don't believe in buying pre-packaged food. I had a health nurse come to my house when I was baking a cherry pie (from scratch) and she told me she didn't think anyone did that anymore. LOL. I often over-extend myself by doing way too many things at once. I sew clothes and crib sets for the new moms at the local crisis pregnancy center and always volunteer for anything and everything. Even though I'm a single mom with 3.5 kids, I often babysit for my friends at no cost.

I'm currently unemployed, but used to work at a call center (which is now a trade and if I had been there for a few more months I would've recieved a trade certificate) I hope to return to college in Sept so that I may take pre-health and then I will be applying to University to take midwifery.

[Miss Sunflower]

I feel like I should introduce myself as well.

I'm Darcy. On March 1st, I found out that I was pregnant. On March 6th, I began spotting and the next day, the 7th, I went to the emergency room. I returned on the 9th for repeat hCG testing and was told that my pregnancy was gone. I found SG within days. I had a strong feeling that my little one was a girl, and named her Poppy Rosalie. She has worked miracles in my life and although I miss her every day, I am eternally grateful for her short life.

I am happily, informally (no ring, yet) engaged to the love of my life, Robby. We met and began seeing each other nearly two years ago. We have three cats and a dog, my furbabies. We just recently moved into a beautiful larger home. Although I am eager to begin TTC, Robby has expressed the wish to wait. However, both this cycle and last cycle he did not prevent, and so I am hopeful for news of a brother or sister for my princess. We are beginning to plan our wedding and hope to be wed in the first half of next year.

[shannon1717]

Hi- I think many of you know me as well...My name is Shannon. I joined in Oct 2007. I had my first m/c in nov 2006. I was sent here by an SG sister and i'm forever greatful to her.

I have 3 l/c- dd- B is 12, dd H is 9 and Austin is 22 months. We lost his twin and that is a loss i feel everyday!

I work in an accounting office part time doing many different things. The rest of the time i'm home with my munchkins. I love to read although Austin never stops so i don't have as much time lately!

We have 2 dogs a shephard/lab mix and English bulldog and a cat.

Just always busy, busy, busy

[Lacie]

Hi there, my name is Lacie. I just had my third miscarriage this past Thursday. I am looking forward to chatting with some of you on here. I hope you are all doing okay. My prayers are with all of us.

I started a support blog, kind of a diary about me and if you would like to follow that would be great. I hope that it brings some peace and comfort to others that are suffering through miscarriage. inyourhandsifind.blogspot.com/

Thank you for letting me share.
Lacie
inyourhandsifind.blogspot.com/

[trishannbo]

Hello to everyone, my name is Trish. I am a Florida girl that loves the beach, sun, and my hometown~Pensacola. I am a SAHM and I help my mom run her restaurant. I also tend to an organic garden full of fruit trees, and veggies. I am hoping to get my chicken coop done soon. I teach Kids Liturgy, and involved in my church and daughter's school. I come to SG quite often, as it really helps me to get through the day to talk to all the great girls on the Miscarriage board.
I had my first m/c on Oct.4, 2009. I lost twins, Micheal and Gabriel, at 11 weeks. They had no heartbeat at the time, but they are in my heart forever. I have been praying for them for four years to come into my life.
I have a beautiful daughter, Anna Maria, who is about to finish 1st grade. She is the love of my life. She is loving, artistic, and a bit dramatic.
My biggest love is my DH, Jeremy. We actually went to HS together but didn't date until college. Our 8 yr anniversary is coming up. He is a bio-chemist and runs a wetlands research lab at the local university (UWF).
We lost my nephew, Hunter Christian Tre, at 2 months old to SIDS. He would be the same age as my daughter.

[benner1976]

Hi! Some of you know me, some of you don't. My name is Susan. I joined SG in February of 2008 after a "lurking sister" encouraged me to come read so I would know I wasn't the only one who felt the way I did. I decided for me I needed to post and talk, so here I am. I have been married to my wonderful DH, an engineer, for 11 years.

My oldest DD was born at 37 weeks in 2001 after a non eventful pregnancy other than horrid Morning Sickness. She is still a perfectionist and other than the 8 year old attitude right now, we couldn't ask anything more from her. She is the best big sister.

My DS was born at 37 weeks after being on bed rest for 8 weeks in 2005. He decided around 28 weeks that he was ready to be here. By the time I got to the hospital, I was extremely ill and they thought that it was most likely dehydration causing the issue. However, he gained just a pound (according to ultrasound) in that 8 weeks, which the OB thought was wierd, but didn't really question. My little trouble maker I called him. He is still the rough tough little boy he was then.

When DS was 2 1/2, we got pregnant with J. I went through almost 9 weeks of pregnancy. Sick as a dog, no issues that made me think anything was wrong. One day, I had one spot, one. I called the OB because that was wierd for me. They had me come in for just a quick US, since my appt was in a couple of days anyway. Nothing prepared me for the ultrasound. There was a blank screen staring at me, just a small sac. Complete and utter devestation. I chose to have the D&C. Just bad luck is what I was told.

After J, I picked myself up and tried again as soon as the doctor advised. 3 months after I lost J, I learned I was pregnant again only to miscarry again a few days later. This time I demanded testing. That's when I learned I had MTHFR and Factor V Leiden with progesterone issues. After visits with the RE and MFM, I found out that the reason for the PTL with my son was a blood clot. This just points out to me what a miracle he is. Finally on my EDD with J, I found out I was pg again.

After months of lovenox, I delivered my youngest DD in April of 2009 at nearly 40 weeks. Perfect in every way. At 12 hours old, she turned blue. The ped on call thought that she just came out so fast that she had excess mucus. At around 16 hours old, she turned blue again and this time appeared to be seizing. They took her to the NICU where she hung out for a week. A few days in, it was determined that she had severe reflux which was causing her to have apneic/bradycardic episodes. She has since been dx with an ASD as well and has some other underlying bone issue that no one can put their finger on, but she appears healthy and is developing on track. She has been on an apnea monitor since she came home from the hospital and I'm ready to be rid of it, but we are awaiting down load results before they will let us get rid of it. She is the queen and she knows it. She is a tough little fighter and we are so blessed to have her.

Are we going to have another? Don't know yet.

Professionally, I'm a pediatric nurse and have been for the last 11 years. About 3 days after I delivered my youngest, I graduated with my Masters in Nursing education. I now teach pediatric nursing at a University here in Indiana. I teach the clinicals, so I still get my patient fix and the best part is I get to pick the ones I want to work with.

[~2angels~]

Thank you so much Clara for all you do for us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am Roberta, I first came to SG a little over 6 years ago in March of 2004 after my second miscarriage. I have been on MTOM, TTC, PAL, & now MAL, although I do lurk on the other boards from time to time. I've been married to DH (Chris) for 7 years, most of which were spent ttc. It took us 5 months to get pg with our first angel (Alex) who we lost at 6 wks. We then waited 3 months before TTC like the dr. had told us to and we were pg again 2 months later and lost that little one (Bailey) at 9 wks. My dh became scared of TTC and the possible loss of another child and refused to ttc for about a year. That was the darkest time in my life and if it weren't for SG I don't know where I would be today. Once we started ttc again we went years with no results and in December of 2007 we began doing fertility treatment. In December of 2008 when dh & I were 1 week away from making the biggest decision of our lives we learned we were pg again. In August of 2009 God finally gave us our merical and dd (Lillian) was born. Dh & I are not currently ttc, he is not sure he wants to ttc again because of everything we've been through I would like to add to our family in a year or so. We'll have to just wait and see how that plays out, I won't lie, I'm not sure I'm up for that kind of battle again. As far as work...I am now a sahm and loving it!!!!!! I was a hair dresser for many years and left the salon I worked at for 7 years because the girls there were just not very understanding to everything dh and I had been through and made my life a living h*ll for years. I then went to work in the behavioral health field working with children with many different types of behavioral difficulties, anything from ADD to ASD.