Post by Sara on Dec 18, 2009 10:02:57 GMT -5
This is my first time to this board, though not to the site. I started at "first m/c" and then have moved to "ttc after loss." Now, I am here.
I'm 24 in 2 weeks, married, Air Force wife and have 2 children. Noah will be 6 in May and Layla will be 1 in 2 weeks as well. This past May we found out we were pregnant again, but miscarried. We've been trying since, but my periods are becoming farther and farther apart. 40 days this past month, 36 days before that.
Over the last few weeks, I've started to put two and two together.
It took us a year to get pregnant with both my kids. I was regular to the point, where I knew what day and what time of the day I would get AF before Noah. Before Layla, periods were a few days early, a few days late. Periods were heavier than before Noah and right after. Longer too - sometimes over a week long.
Noah was born in May 2004 and I went on DEPO for 6 months. I bled everyday like a period, I was so miserable only finally coming off of it after I passed out one night. Dr said too much blood loss. The following year I had a laparoscopy to remove cysts like ping pongs off both my ovaries. I had a d&c as well to remove scar tissue on my cervix. The following year the surgery was repeated for the same thing.
The hair on my arms has gotten darker and thicker, moving beyond the crook of my arms and up towards the shoulders. The hair on my legs has darkened and grows in faster. If I wanted smooth legs, I'd have to shave every day. Same with my armpits, if I wanted no hair there, I'd have to shave every day maybe twice a day. The worst is the hair on my face, my neck and down to my collar bone. Its dark and thick and most days I have a 5 o'clock shadow just like my husband. I've waxed, tweezed, nair'd and veet'd but nothing works.
I have acne on both my shoulders and onto my shoulder blades. If I wax or use creams on my face to remove the hair, I burn my skin or leave nasty rashes that are present long enough to when the hair starts growing back in, I have to wax or lather up all over again. Its a sad and never ending process. In grown hairs on the neck are the worst too and embarrassing for someone my age - I got rid of acne in my early teens.
I got pregnant with Layla in May of 2008, an uneventful pregnancy. My cervix shrunk in size and I was hospitalized for 2 days. My husband deployed and I kept busy at home with Noah. I was induced at 39 weeks, she was a 9 lb baby. Healthy. We didn't go on birth control like the DR suggested but when I was "healed" again - we started ttc again. When we got pregnant that May again we were told the pregnancy wasn't viable from the beginning. I tried to pass the baby on my own but ended up having a d&c the first week of July.
I think the worst part of the last few years is the weight gain. I stand at 5'10 and was 155 when we got pregnant with Noah 6 years ago. I gained 50 lbs with him and was able to lose most of it soon after giving birth. Following DEPO I gained it all back and then some. I was a runner and considered myself one still until the year we got pregnant with Layla. I weighed in at 230 with her, lost 5 lbs during the pregnancy and then gained 15. Even after having her, I didn't lose any of it. I was 245 when I got pregnant in May, I weighed in at 271 last week. I go to the gym 3 days a week, sometimes on the elliptical for 30-60 minutes at a time. I walk my son to and from school, a mile each way. None of the weight is coming off.
Since the miscarriage in June, my periods are heavier and farther apart. Every month I'm confused by pms symptoms and what could be pregnancy. I've taken about $100 worth of pregnancy tests. I no longer cramp the way I used to, not even the period itself is painful the way it used to be. I've come to the conclusion that I am no longer ovulating - or at least as much as a "normal" woman my age might be.
I did some research online and came to the conclusion that I was experiencing the same symptoms that of PCOS. PCM made a referral for a new OB. That OB not only said I wasn't diabetic (have been type 2 for over 6 months now and taking Metforin for it) but I did not have PCOS. That I was young and healthy and if I wanted to regulate again he would put me on birth control. He suggested I lose weight, because I was "pretty heavy" and come back to him in a year. It was humiliating and a very discouraging 10 minute consultation that I waited 60 minutes to hear.
A friend of mine back in Germany has PCOS. She used IVF with both of her kids. She told me I have all the classic signs. The other day she told me to look at my hairline. She wanted to know if I'd started to notice a loss. Not only is my part wider but at my temples and the top of my head is receding like a man would. I take such good care of my hair, its thick and long, I never noticed or never thought to check.
I booked an appointment with my PCM, explaining to the nurse what happened Wed with the OB. I told the nurse that I'm confused as to what to do. My husband wants to see me happy. In Sept while in Germany, my PCM there made a referral for gastric bypass saying my diabetes would go away and I would ovulate again on my own. I ended up passing on the referral saying if I was to do something so extreme I would do it after I was finished with kids. Now I'm beginning to rethink. Maybe I need to be healthy now for the kids I do have. My husband and I definitely want 2 more, maybe 3 more kids. But what if I'm walking away from my chances now? What if our opportunity to have kids - is now, even if I am ONLY 24 years old? I just don't want to make the wrong choice and be selfish with it.
To have my kids so close in age is my own personal choice, we can afford me being a stay at home mom - I am the one who raises them, no one else. For someone to say, you're crazy to want 2 kids in diapers at one is so insensitive.
My sister in law is pregnant now, she has a baby already at home the same age as Layla. She and her husband are only 21. My best friend up north lost her 4th baby at the same time that we lost our 3rd. She was 7 months pregnant. We grieved together, prayed together that December would be our month together again. Thanksgiving night she found out she was pregnant again. I was 4 days late, expecting to be late, I had all the classic signs of pregnancy... only to get my period. I took another pregnancy test last night, a big fat negative. I guess I was kind of hoping that it was just vaginal bleeding.
Can anyone help me? Talk to me please? Anyone with PCOS? I only have the one friend and she is done having kids, older. She recommended that I have the gastric and approach the idea of more kids when I am healthy again. I just don't know anymore.
I'm 24 in 2 weeks, married, Air Force wife and have 2 children. Noah will be 6 in May and Layla will be 1 in 2 weeks as well. This past May we found out we were pregnant again, but miscarried. We've been trying since, but my periods are becoming farther and farther apart. 40 days this past month, 36 days before that.
Over the last few weeks, I've started to put two and two together.
It took us a year to get pregnant with both my kids. I was regular to the point, where I knew what day and what time of the day I would get AF before Noah. Before Layla, periods were a few days early, a few days late. Periods were heavier than before Noah and right after. Longer too - sometimes over a week long.
Noah was born in May 2004 and I went on DEPO for 6 months. I bled everyday like a period, I was so miserable only finally coming off of it after I passed out one night. Dr said too much blood loss. The following year I had a laparoscopy to remove cysts like ping pongs off both my ovaries. I had a d&c as well to remove scar tissue on my cervix. The following year the surgery was repeated for the same thing.
The hair on my arms has gotten darker and thicker, moving beyond the crook of my arms and up towards the shoulders. The hair on my legs has darkened and grows in faster. If I wanted smooth legs, I'd have to shave every day. Same with my armpits, if I wanted no hair there, I'd have to shave every day maybe twice a day. The worst is the hair on my face, my neck and down to my collar bone. Its dark and thick and most days I have a 5 o'clock shadow just like my husband. I've waxed, tweezed, nair'd and veet'd but nothing works.
I have acne on both my shoulders and onto my shoulder blades. If I wax or use creams on my face to remove the hair, I burn my skin or leave nasty rashes that are present long enough to when the hair starts growing back in, I have to wax or lather up all over again. Its a sad and never ending process. In grown hairs on the neck are the worst too and embarrassing for someone my age - I got rid of acne in my early teens.
I got pregnant with Layla in May of 2008, an uneventful pregnancy. My cervix shrunk in size and I was hospitalized for 2 days. My husband deployed and I kept busy at home with Noah. I was induced at 39 weeks, she was a 9 lb baby. Healthy. We didn't go on birth control like the DR suggested but when I was "healed" again - we started ttc again. When we got pregnant that May again we were told the pregnancy wasn't viable from the beginning. I tried to pass the baby on my own but ended up having a d&c the first week of July.
I think the worst part of the last few years is the weight gain. I stand at 5'10 and was 155 when we got pregnant with Noah 6 years ago. I gained 50 lbs with him and was able to lose most of it soon after giving birth. Following DEPO I gained it all back and then some. I was a runner and considered myself one still until the year we got pregnant with Layla. I weighed in at 230 with her, lost 5 lbs during the pregnancy and then gained 15. Even after having her, I didn't lose any of it. I was 245 when I got pregnant in May, I weighed in at 271 last week. I go to the gym 3 days a week, sometimes on the elliptical for 30-60 minutes at a time. I walk my son to and from school, a mile each way. None of the weight is coming off.
Since the miscarriage in June, my periods are heavier and farther apart. Every month I'm confused by pms symptoms and what could be pregnancy. I've taken about $100 worth of pregnancy tests. I no longer cramp the way I used to, not even the period itself is painful the way it used to be. I've come to the conclusion that I am no longer ovulating - or at least as much as a "normal" woman my age might be.
I did some research online and came to the conclusion that I was experiencing the same symptoms that of PCOS. PCM made a referral for a new OB. That OB not only said I wasn't diabetic (have been type 2 for over 6 months now and taking Metforin for it) but I did not have PCOS. That I was young and healthy and if I wanted to regulate again he would put me on birth control. He suggested I lose weight, because I was "pretty heavy" and come back to him in a year. It was humiliating and a very discouraging 10 minute consultation that I waited 60 minutes to hear.
A friend of mine back in Germany has PCOS. She used IVF with both of her kids. She told me I have all the classic signs. The other day she told me to look at my hairline. She wanted to know if I'd started to notice a loss. Not only is my part wider but at my temples and the top of my head is receding like a man would. I take such good care of my hair, its thick and long, I never noticed or never thought to check.
I booked an appointment with my PCM, explaining to the nurse what happened Wed with the OB. I told the nurse that I'm confused as to what to do. My husband wants to see me happy. In Sept while in Germany, my PCM there made a referral for gastric bypass saying my diabetes would go away and I would ovulate again on my own. I ended up passing on the referral saying if I was to do something so extreme I would do it after I was finished with kids. Now I'm beginning to rethink. Maybe I need to be healthy now for the kids I do have. My husband and I definitely want 2 more, maybe 3 more kids. But what if I'm walking away from my chances now? What if our opportunity to have kids - is now, even if I am ONLY 24 years old? I just don't want to make the wrong choice and be selfish with it.
To have my kids so close in age is my own personal choice, we can afford me being a stay at home mom - I am the one who raises them, no one else. For someone to say, you're crazy to want 2 kids in diapers at one is so insensitive.
My sister in law is pregnant now, she has a baby already at home the same age as Layla. She and her husband are only 21. My best friend up north lost her 4th baby at the same time that we lost our 3rd. She was 7 months pregnant. We grieved together, prayed together that December would be our month together again. Thanksgiving night she found out she was pregnant again. I was 4 days late, expecting to be late, I had all the classic signs of pregnancy... only to get my period. I took another pregnancy test last night, a big fat negative. I guess I was kind of hoping that it was just vaginal bleeding.
Can anyone help me? Talk to me please? Anyone with PCOS? I only have the one friend and she is done having kids, older. She recommended that I have the gastric and approach the idea of more kids when I am healthy again. I just don't know anymore.
