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Mar 30, 2015 11:44:45 GMT -5
Post by Miriah on Mar 30, 2015 11:44:45 GMT -5
Losing this baby is hard enough on it's own but unfortunately the loss came after nearly a year of excruciating emotional pain from an entirely different issue. Sometimes it's the crushing weight of an issue that breaks us down. Sometimes it's the duration of it wearing away at us like water flowing over a rock. In this case it's both. To struggle emotionally for so long and have life finally start looking up only to lose the baby at 12 weeks..... I can't even tell you how hopeless I feel. Will I ever be ok?
My husband had an affair and, very long story short, I believe he has changed and I'm willing to give him another chance (I do not need advice on this issue. I know what I'm doing and I'm not allowing him to take advantage of me <3 ) but the pain of it is there every day. Add the loss on top of that and I don't know how to manage. I'm doing much better now though I'm not really sure why, it almost feels wrong. It has to be God carrying me through. I was having some pretty serious panic attacks a few months ago, now I have what feels like mild panic attacks and depression that comes and goes. I feel almost unable to handle any stress at all. I dont know what to do.
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