Dealing with a miscarriage alone

[stephielyn1208]

When I found out I was pregnant, my boyfriend had just left for Africa a week before that. He would be gone for a full nine months. At first he was very supportive and by supportive we talked on facebook as long as the internet was working for him. There really wasn't any other way to communicate. He then became unsure of the situation and doubting everything. I from the very start was fully determined to do whatever it took to give my baby a great life. Five days ago I was experiencing unbelievable pain and bleeding. I went to the ER to find there was no heartbeat. I was 10 weeks. I went and had a d and c the next day. The father of the baby is in Africa and I'm here alone every night with my heart breaking. This is the hardest thing to do grieving on my own like this. I've never felt so much pain.

[foreverfrenchie]

im soooo sorry you have had to go thru this by yourself....sending you many hugs and know that we are here for you .

[adoni]

I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. The feeling of loneliness is something I'm also dealing with. My miscarriage took place on mothers day and at first I was so angry and disappointed in myself. My partner was very supportive during that week but kept saying " don't worry you will have another" which was aggravating and difficult to respond to at the time. Oddly, the pain and surprise made deinf with the sadness a little easier, I mean I was so consumed with dealing with what just happened I didn't have much space to really think about it. It was only after two weeks, when I returned home ( I work overseas) that I was hit with the loneliness and isation, my sisters stopes asking thinking I was over it and my partner moved on with his daily routine, likely bc he didn't have to see me every day dealing with it. I now feel so alone, I don't want to gool outside and although my doctors told me my health is back to normal ( I had a natural and fast miscarriage) I still feel so lost and silenced. Who do I talk to? I feel like a broken record but it's only been three weeks and I know I have the right to be very very sad. I've found the only place I feel comfort is on these forums, which has been amazing for my healing .

Anyways that was a long rant to say- it's inly for us to be sad, it's ok to cry out of nowhere and to feel like no one understand. I'm learning to embrace this vulnerability and empty feeling bc I really feel like there is a purpose in all of this.

I send you so so so much love and comfort .

A.