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Post by myheart on Nov 17, 2014 23:40:00 GMT -5
Today I said goodbye to my Clyde. The years have passed and the pains burns like it was yesterday. I once again find myself lost and numb. I found myself here. Back to the only place and people who understood. I spend everyday pushing the pain away, hiding from I it and pretending it's not happening to me. On this day I am unable to keep it away, unable to stop the tears. I miss him so much. I fell that pain, the one that rips at your heart and puts a fist in your stomach. I don't want to let myself go back to this place. I wish I wish for just one more moment to see his face to hold him. Why was he taken from me so soon. I love you my best best boy in the world. I went to the beach today, his favorite place. A few months ago I went to look for sand dollars with my nieces. We searched for 3 hours and nothing. So long my shoes floated out to sea with the tide! Today walking along, thinking of him, I look down. A single sand dollar sits before me. Not another on the whole beach. I truly believe he set it there for me to find, to know he's with me. I need to believe that. I thought I could come here more but it's so hard. It's so hard to live without him. I think about my old "friends" often. Thank you silent grief for being here when I can't get through another day.
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Post by libralise on Nov 23, 2014 20:16:38 GMT -5
That sand dollar was, I absolutely believe, put there by your baby boy. What a beautiful gift for you, a knowledge that you can carry in your heart.
I am feeling very sad for you. I am sorry that this sadness and ache has been in your life for so long.
Sending you love and strength,
Much love my dear
xoxx
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Post by jaredsmommyforever on Nov 3, 2015 2:45:27 GMT -5
I agree about the sand dollar being there from him to you. I am sad that so few seem to be here anymore to respond to posts like yours. I am wondering if you will be coming back this year, as your date is approaching. If you do, I am glad you will see this note so you will know you were thought of. Take care. I remember you and Clyde and will continue to.
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Post by ourprincesscbloe on Nov 9, 2015 6:50:22 GMT -5
((((My Heart))))
I am so sorry that you have had to find yourself here again. I wish that I had words that could take your pain away, but, alas, here I am again too.
May today be peaceful for you. I wish you could find a sand dollar on every corner today, like Clyde was playing a game.
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Post by pocooso on Dec 6, 2015 0:52:59 GMT -5
I'm sorry for your loss.
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