Post by jhopper on Aug 31, 2014 11:25:44 GMT -5
Hello my name is Jennifer. In November of 2012 I found out I had cysts on my ovaries and was told me and my husband would have to do fertility to get pregnant. Well after trying a few times we found out May 6th 2014 that we were pregnant. It was an exciting time in our life. I did everything the doctor told us to do. We did the ultrasound and got to see our precious baby grow. I always looked forward to my appointment to hear the heart beat. Everything was going perfect tell early August. I kept getting this cramping feeling some times it even put me to my knees. I called the doctors office and talked to thr nurse she said it was normal just having round ligament pains. My doctors appointment was on the 21st to find out what we were having and the cramping got less and less so I thought I would discuss it with my doctor then. Well the 21st came and I was heart broken to find out my doctor had a emergency and rescheduled for that coming Monday the 25th. Well Friday the cramping came back in my right side. Went to bed that night but tossed and turned was so uncomfortable. Saturday morning wasin pain and then the fear came when I felt a pop and all this liquid came out I got up screaming to my husband. He rushed me to the hospital. They brought me to the ER said I was not far enough along to go to the OB floor. They took lots of blood and a ultrasound. After about an hour the ER doctor came In and told us we were losing our baby that my water broke. He said there is a heartbeat but wont be for long. Asked when my next doctors appointment was and I told him Monday morning, he told me to keep it he would contact my doctor wrote me a prescription and said if I had any complications to come back. Well all weekend was so hard since I could feel our baby move in me. It was so unreal. Well Monday morning came and to my surprise no one contacted my doctor. He was so upset that he could have saved my baby if he was contacted. He rushed me to the hospital and told me my baby was to big I would have to deliver him. All me and my hisband could do was cry. They gave me some medicine to help dilate me. 3 hours I later I gave birth to a baby boy 5.5 ounces and 7 3/4 inches long. He was beautiful it broke my heart he didn't survive. Finding out my cervix was not strong enough to hold him. The doctor said I still have to deliver the placenta if I cant deliver it in a couple hours I would have to have surgery. As we were waiting for me to deliver they brought me my son to hold and say good by. I kept thinking I was suppose to be out of the danger zone I was 5 months pregnant. Then I felt this gush all this blood was pooring out of me. I was bleeding internally. They rushed me to surgery finding out the placenta was not releasing itself instead it was ripping my uterus. After awhile in surgery the doctor went out to speak to my husband, he told him I lost over 3 liters of blood and dont think I was going to make it. My husband broke down and prayed. After about 30 minutes I woke up and they said it was able to see my husband. Every one was so suprised I made it. After a couple days they sent me home but now things are getting hard. Found out my son was to small and young to receive a birth certificate so we couldnt bury him. We decided to cremated him and make him a beautiful memorial with a plaque. Now we are going through the grieving process. When will the tears stop falling? When will my heart stop breaking? I miss my son every day and every minute. I just want to hold him again and kiss his little head. Doctor said after 6 weeks if we want to try again we can, its just to hard to say right now.