Post by Debs on Feb 16, 2011 12:24:04 GMT -5
Let me warn you right now that this post is ttc in nature, so I am not offended if some of you don't want to read/deal with that here. I am well aware that right now the ttc board has several on it trying for their first, and my efforts for this baby, after my beautiful miracle girl, can probably sometimes feel like a bit of a slap in the face. I need some advice from the veterans who have long moved on to this board, so I hope you don't mind an off topic post.
I have to get some things out, as well, so I am sure I'll ramble a bit. Blessings to anyone who makes it through this; complete understanding to anyone who doesn't!
As many know, we were surprised with a pregnancy last spring. We could not have been more thrilled, but I never could get my heart settled that things would be okay. I saw the hb at almost 8 weeks, but it was gone by 11 weeks. I went through a very rough m/c at home...rough both physically and emotionally (as most m/c's are).
Back in my days on the ttc board, through the repeated m/c's , I had a pressing feeling that it was like a puzzle to solve, that I had to find out what was wrong to get a baby that was waiting for us here. My instincts were right; we found the right doctor and the right treatment to bring our sweet Sophia home.
With this loss, though, I have had more of a calm, peaceful feeling that I am already doing what I can as far as the "big guns" go. Honestly, I know there is another child that is to be part of my family. What I don't know for sure is whether that is meant to happen in this life, or if I will just have to be patient enough to meet that baby in heaven.
I believe very much that if you approach things prayerfully, God will guide you toward what you need to do. Since that last loss, I have felt that we need to ttc. I have said that I will give it until June, and then prayerfully re-evaluate. Brian is completely on board and is hoping for one last baby.
Almost 11 months have passed since my last m/c, and obviously we have not succeeded in ttc. I am well aware of the age factor, but I don't feel right about any extraordinary measures. I feel like this time, I need to leave it in God's hands, using the info I already have on the clotting disorder, etc.
However, I am also a believer that God likes us to participate in solving our own problems. The last couple of months I have felt like, if I do want one more, I need to demonstrate that faith by being sure my system is in the best ttc position possible, given my age, etc. Many of you know that in the past I had done a great deal of research on vitamins, etc. that affect ttc. Currently, my cycle is still very regular (although about 2 days longer than it was before my last m/c). My lp is normal and, at least according to the cheap OTC tests, my fsh is still well within normal range. I am not sure that i O'ed last month, but O was regular up until that point.
I am currently on low dose aspirin for my clotting disorder, extra folate and a good multivitamin. Does anyone want to give me a refresher on some of the other things that may help? There are others on my list, but I thought I 'd just put it out there in hopes of getting reminders of some 'helps' I may have forgotten. Then I can take all of the info and determine what I feel like I am supposed to do at this point.
And if any of you could add me to an occasional prayer, that is also appreciated. At this point I am not praying for a bfp so much as I am praying for the right thing to happen for our family: that either I will get that bfp, or that I will have the comfort of knowing I have done all that I should as far as ttc goes. I have had enough experiences of late that have taught me that God knows my needs far better than I know my own; and I could not ask for more than the miracle in my arms now.
Thanks for listening, girls. Sometimes you just need a bit of advice from some "old" friends, even if it doesn't quite fit the topic at hand. Now, back to your regularly scheduled MAL posts...
I have to get some things out, as well, so I am sure I'll ramble a bit. Blessings to anyone who makes it through this; complete understanding to anyone who doesn't!
As many know, we were surprised with a pregnancy last spring. We could not have been more thrilled, but I never could get my heart settled that things would be okay. I saw the hb at almost 8 weeks, but it was gone by 11 weeks. I went through a very rough m/c at home...rough both physically and emotionally (as most m/c's are).
Back in my days on the ttc board, through the repeated m/c's , I had a pressing feeling that it was like a puzzle to solve, that I had to find out what was wrong to get a baby that was waiting for us here. My instincts were right; we found the right doctor and the right treatment to bring our sweet Sophia home.
With this loss, though, I have had more of a calm, peaceful feeling that I am already doing what I can as far as the "big guns" go. Honestly, I know there is another child that is to be part of my family. What I don't know for sure is whether that is meant to happen in this life, or if I will just have to be patient enough to meet that baby in heaven.
I believe very much that if you approach things prayerfully, God will guide you toward what you need to do. Since that last loss, I have felt that we need to ttc. I have said that I will give it until June, and then prayerfully re-evaluate. Brian is completely on board and is hoping for one last baby.
Almost 11 months have passed since my last m/c, and obviously we have not succeeded in ttc. I am well aware of the age factor, but I don't feel right about any extraordinary measures. I feel like this time, I need to leave it in God's hands, using the info I already have on the clotting disorder, etc.
However, I am also a believer that God likes us to participate in solving our own problems. The last couple of months I have felt like, if I do want one more, I need to demonstrate that faith by being sure my system is in the best ttc position possible, given my age, etc. Many of you know that in the past I had done a great deal of research on vitamins, etc. that affect ttc. Currently, my cycle is still very regular (although about 2 days longer than it was before my last m/c). My lp is normal and, at least according to the cheap OTC tests, my fsh is still well within normal range. I am not sure that i O'ed last month, but O was regular up until that point.
I am currently on low dose aspirin for my clotting disorder, extra folate and a good multivitamin. Does anyone want to give me a refresher on some of the other things that may help? There are others on my list, but I thought I 'd just put it out there in hopes of getting reminders of some 'helps' I may have forgotten. Then I can take all of the info and determine what I feel like I am supposed to do at this point.
And if any of you could add me to an occasional prayer, that is also appreciated. At this point I am not praying for a bfp so much as I am praying for the right thing to happen for our family: that either I will get that bfp, or that I will have the comfort of knowing I have done all that I should as far as ttc goes. I have had enough experiences of late that have taught me that God knows my needs far better than I know my own; and I could not ask for more than the miracle in my arms now.
Thanks for listening, girls. Sometimes you just need a bit of advice from some "old" friends, even if it doesn't quite fit the topic at hand. Now, back to your regularly scheduled MAL posts...