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« Thread Started on Nov 7, 2009, 7:25am » | |
over to "more than one ..." I don't want to keep typing threads in the "PAL" board when I am not pregnant anymore (unless there's some kind of miracle which I know will not happen after all the blood and pg symptoms loss that is occuring.
My stays are so short. I feel like the worst case now. I mean how many times can one get pregnant and think, "This time, everything will go well." and lose. There's no reason that I am aware of. I am going to see that RE next week up in Montana and I hope that they can give me a reason other than reading me back some statistic out of a text book-sounding answer. We have high hopes that something will get figured out and maybe I can park my pregnant butt down for 9 long months.
Sorry if I wrote anything that scared any of you. Don't worry is all I can say. Even after all of these losses, when I get pregnant, I don't let worry and fear be the primary emotion. It's hard when someone else loses b/c we want to say the right thing, of course. But, it's also a reminder that we don't want to be reminded of.
Best wishes on all of your pregnancies ladies. I may be back soon and hopefully I can share all the good news each week. That's something I am not used to but it would be super welcome.
Hugs! 
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chemical pgs 6/09, 10/09, 11/09 and ectopic pg 8/09
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« Reply #1 on Nov 7, 2009, 9:55am » | |
Where your hcg was only 1, I'm wondering if it was leftover hcg from October's pg. The reason I'm wondering if that's the case is becauseI know that with several of my m/c's (even one's where I had a d&c), it took awhile for my hormone level to come back down. My 5th loss (Taylor) took well over a month for the hormone levels to zero out. Dh and the tech had seen a flicker of the beginnings of a heartbeat with him/her (even though I hadn't been able to at the screen angle). But the baby wasn't even that far along....and I had a d&c.
Anyways, it might make one feel better to know that it was not another loss. I know it would with me anyways. Three losses in a 3 month period of time is pretty tough.
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« Reply #2 on Nov 7, 2009, 7:34pm » | |
Oh dawn. I wish I had some answers. These dr's here are negligent. I took pregnancy tests and they were all bright BFP's until the bleeding commenced. They faded. I think my last hcg went from 30 something thousand to 6. At 6 I still have a bfp. I ovulated around Oct 19th. I had my surge that day. Then I felt pg symptoms again starting..got a bfp and now my bb's are deflated...I had those contrax like cramps on the 5th for about an hour. I know those m/c cramps all too well compared to bad menstrual cramps. I know I conceived again. I am trying to convince myself otherwise. I read that anything under 5 is not considered pg. But, the stupid lady I talked to at the dr's office said that normal 4-5 week pregnancy hcg #'s are 0-50.
No matter what, I am bleeding out whatever is left over from whatever month. The clot I passed before scared me because I felt it slide out of me and heard it hit the water. OMG! My bleeding has slowed down since. I guess whatever had to come out..came out and after losing Stardust when he/she measured 9 1/2 wks, seeing the baby inside the sac (took out the details b/c someone was sickened. Sorry. I really wish someone at the dr's office told me what to expect at least.  )I see that dr next week but my moods shift so much that I came close to shredding all the intake forms and tossing them in the trash and not even going.
I've lost my mind I guess.
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« Reply #3 on Nov 8, 2009, 12:13am » | |
i'm really sorry you are going through this again... .. I wish there was a magical pill we could all take to make us have a healthy full term pregnancy.........I kinda got a little weak in the belly with this tho
****seeing the baby inside the sac and just staring in shock at all the fingers and toes that were formed,,,,eyes, heart and cord...I know to NEVER look back....just flush. ***
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« Reply #4 on Nov 8, 2009, 11:31am » | |
im sorry for your loss again, but im very puzzled by your hcg lvls being 30 thousand something at 4 weeks. i thought you only had 1 beta done???
sorry for asking, maybe i missed your post.
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« Reply #5 on Nov 8, 2009, 11:36am » | |
Nov 8, 2009, 11:31am, munchiemom wrote:im sorry for your loss again, but im very puzzled by your hcg lvls being 30 thousand something at 4 weeks. i thought you only had 1 beta done???
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It's been too much in a short period of time. But that was last month.
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chemical pgs 6/09, 10/09, 11/09 and ectopic pg 8/09
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